DAY 8

I’ll w3!ght myself tomorrow and I’m scared (even if I løst 1 cm around my W.. anyway)

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎀

Lunch~ fried chicken and omelette with salad Snack~ smoothie bowl Dinner~ green tea + steamed spicy rice with tofu and vegetables + papaya, tempeh and cucumber + a bag of seaweed

+ 2 ice Americano

Total:~ 1800 ✌️

The anaesthetic part doesn’t work anymore.. I feel a bit to much for my own good and it is insufferable Maybe if I ⭐️ a little bit more I can numb my emotions and be completely detached again

DAY 26

Art.. that include painting, installation, performance and writing

Biology and science, especially micro and macro world🧑‍🔬

Sport, I’m currently in the gym but that’s only because I can’t afford swimming class and horse riding hahahahaaaa (give me money lmao)

Politics

Doing to much sudoku for my own good

Making fake scenarios in my head and talking to myself

M3nstru@t!øn… hope they’ll be in vacation next month hehehe

I’m entering a weird mode when I need someone to 3@t with either way I would just skip it until dinner time

I basically forcing føød in my bødy right now just to keep it functional and I’m exhausted because it’s the finals and I’m really active + I don’t wanna g@!n all the w3!ght back so I have to be extra careful to 3@t “enough” from now on

I have mixed feelings about the stage that I’m in right now lmao

DAY 19

Yes a couple, and they all reacted differently

My family was worried a lot especially my parents, they tried to do their best

My best friend at the time scolded me (it was funny not in a harsh way)

One of my dear friend noticed and told me out of nowhere “you gonna 3@t right?”

Some of my other friends understood because they were struggling or struggled with something similar but kept an eye on me just to be sure I was okay

I have this friend that I love so much but don’t see that often, who told me that the fact that I was leaving for 4 months was worrying because maybe I could rel@pse… they couldn’t been more right AHAHAHAH do they see the future or something??

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🐊

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 1 egg Lunch~ spicy cheesy sausage + 1 apple Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ homemade protein sandwiches (it looked prettier in my head lmao) + Greek yogurt and fruit (1/2 apple and some red grapes)

Total:~ 1200

I feel better than yesterday, I was able to r3str!ct myself a little bit more but finding the right balance with protein 🌼

TIPS—bødy dysmørph!@ edition

— TAKE YOUR M3@SUR3MENTS!!! Seriously you can’t trust your reflection and your w3!ght is not totally accurate Combining it with your m3@sur3ments can really help you to not stress to much because of the deformation in the mirror The numbers tells you the truth! No it’s not possible that you’re looking totally different from an hour or a minute ago, IT IS IN YOUR FCKING HEAD !

— MASSAGE YOUR FACE Idc if it’s gua sha or anything else but I know that for me it’s help to feel the shape of my face under my fingers + you’re taking care of your skin so it’s a win-win (remember to hydrate it before doing anything!!)

— TRY ON CLOTHES THAT YOU KNOW FITS YOU Pretty simple but works a lot when you’re panicking, your clothes won’t change s!ze overnight you can trust them At least more than your reflection

— AVOID THE MIRROR FOR A TIME You can go back to it whenever you want, just take a break from it and do something else like working or watching something it doesn’t matter JUST don’t trap yourself by staying before the object

Have a good day everyone 🧚

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌱

Breakfast~ 2 ice Americano + Greek yogurt with corn and 1 egg + soya milk Snack~ spicy cheesy sausage + Egg salad wraps Lunch~ scrambled eggs with mushrooms sauce on focaccia and 1 chicken sausage + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1 gado-gado with kerupuk

Total:~ 1500-1600