M3nstru@t!øn… Hope They’ll Be In Vacation Next Month Hehehe

DAY 9

No cause I feel in control and helping nųmb!ñg my feelings

Still feel miserable tho, I’m well aware that’s a bad things and that I’m not good

I was at DAY 3 but quick resume of the first 2 days :)

(I count/measure everything in c@l, kg and cm)

DAY 1

Height:150cm - CW:56 - GW:47 - UGW:40.

Expectations: GW before returning home in 1 month and a half, loosing my p3r!ods, waist at 60 (at least)

DAY 2

Papaya, sambal, coffee, protein (lowc), sweet treats (lowc)

DAY 3

I don't think I have one but getting obsessed and having a goal makes me forget about my other problems or they'll have less impact on me. Basically it's like treating 4n@! as a coping mechanisms and numbing all the other feelings that are "unnecessary"... Note: I'm just a coward that avoids her problems instead of facing them Imao (it's working tho)

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 👑

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ steamed vegetables with roasted chicken and creamy mushroom sauce + 1 ice Americano Snack~ smoothie bowl +passion fruit drink

Total:~ 1400

My biggest flex right now is that I have a meat bread in my bag and I’m strong enough not to 3@t it

Make me feel in control weirdly

DAY 23

Idk anymore haha, I sure act like I am on a daily basis but overall I don’t think I’m happy, more like grateful about the events in my life and my surroundings, friends and family

I started this journey to numb my feelings.. well I think it’s working pretty well lmao

DAY 4

UGW: 40

I never been to this point, people started worrying before I could. I think that’s because I’m short and when I løs3w3!ght it’s rapidly noticeable. My lw was 41 or something (or little løw3r [?]) I don’t remember. It was 5 years ago. But I think my ugw is more to tell myself to not go løw3r.. I don’t want to worry people again and being forced into “r3cøv3ry” one more time. I don’t want to see my parents' teary eyes and watch my father delaying the moment he has to go to work just to make sure I 3@t something.. it really broke me at the time. At the time, I didn’t realise that it could impact other around me that way and I don’t want my friends and relatives to go through this once more just because I kinda f~ck3d up again. When I come back, if people ask me, I’ll just say “Did I? Idk.. I guess I’ve just been really active in the past month :)” which is actually the reality soooo half lies half true haha

But yeah that’s the reason my ugw isn’t løw3r sorry for this self centred story, thank you for reading it <3

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🐞

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ smoothie bowl + cheddar sandwich + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 3 bites of bread + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ my regular egg bowl + Greek yogurt with toping (granola, chickpeas and fruits) + 1 green tea

Total:~ 1600

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

Still stuck at 53… at least my strength remains the same as when I started I guess FREE ME FROM THIS JAIIIIIL😫

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt Lunch~ roasted chicken with mushroom pepper sauce and steamed vegetables + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ protein salad + green salad, 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1300

What a great day