DAY 4
DAY 4
UGW: 40
I never been to this point, people started worrying before I could. I think that’s because I’m short and when I løs3w3!ght it’s rapidly noticeable. My lw was 41 or something (or little løw3r [?]) I don’t remember. It was 5 years ago. But I think my ugw is more to tell myself to not go løw3r.. I don’t want to worry people again and being forced into “r3cøv3ry” one more time. I don’t want to see my parents' teary eyes and watch my father delaying the moment he has to go to work just to make sure I 3@t something.. it really broke me at the time. At the time, I didn’t realise that it could impact other around me that way and I don’t want my friends and relatives to go through this once more just because I kinda f~ck3d up again. When I come back, if people ask me, I’ll just say “Did I? Idk.. I guess I’ve just been really active in the past month :)” which is actually the reality soooo half lies half true haha
But yeah that’s the reason my ugw isn’t løw3r sorry for this self centred story, thank you for reading it <3
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Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard
TF YOU MEAN I’M COLD AT 25 C° ?? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE WHEN I COME BACK ?? -- It’s more around 20C° or less at home lol 💀--
DAY 10 (youhouhou!)
✨Denial is a river in Egypt ✨💅 HAHAHAHA. But honestly, to this day I’m still not entirely convinced that I have 3d even if, rationally speaking, something is definitely wrong lmao It’s easier to tell yourself that you’re simply in control… FAKE IT UNTIL YOU MAKE IT 💃💃 MOUAHAHAH (Don’t do this please)
Im gonna stop with the c@lør!3s.. I started tracking them again but it’s just stressing me so much and it’s not good for my goals so I will go back to estimation and focus on portions cøntrøl (this worked well with me)
M3t@bday make me feel like I’m pregnant
It’s easier to hide it when you do weightlifting lmao People will just assume that you got l3@ner by working out to see your muscles and it’s more conventionally acceptable than having an 3d.. I got the perfect excuse now hehe
FØ0D DAIRY
Last 3 days
Add more coffee and u good ☕️☕️
Sat≈ 1800
Sun≈ 1200
M≈ 1800
Tuesday coming soon..
Love when bødy dysmørph!@ is in vacation
Please stay where you are and don’t come back☺️, the longer the better <33 …. That’s what she said
I’m again, going to a 3 days trip (two of them is the time of the travel lmao) and I feel like I’ll be able to walk out of this experience in cøntrøl and with a smile on my face
ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🏹
Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 spicy cheesy sausage + 1 apple + 1 corn ice cream + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1 meat bread with kimchi + tofu and 1 egg with spicy sauce + grapes
Total:~800
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