Love When Bødy Dysmørph!@ Is In Vacation

If someone needs to hear this

(I wrote this because I myself needed a reminder lmao)

I took a rest day yesterday and was afraid that I’ll feel guilty this morning.. I FEEL SOO GOOD! My body is thanking me right now

Taking that as a reminder to not over exercise your muscles if you don’t want to hurt yourself and starting despising any kind of sports that you’re doing and make you feel good

That’s what I did last time and I ended up hating abs and running so bad that I didn’t attempt a proper run or any kind of abs exercises for 5 years??? So if it can help someone not falling into this h3ll of a loop, don’t overdo your body, let him rest AT LEAST 1 day a week if it’s aching (I’m not talking about normal stiffness here) in a weird way

If you’re doing a sport that you really like right now, PLEASE don’t overdo it because you’ll end up hating it, making you sad and more guilty. We don’t want to lose the muscle that we built, prioritise consistency instead of overdoing the discipline part. One rest day will still give you the bød¥ you’re aiming for AND the energy to continue <33

Reminder that one day won’t ruin everything, it’s okay, don’t punish yourself or b!ng3 because you ate one “b@d fø0d”, it will end up worse and we don’t want to make it worse, do we ? Listen to your bød¥ a bit more especially for the “exercise part”.

That’s why this time I just didn’t count my gym sessions here to separate what I 3@T and what I’m burn!ng. Treat workout as a thing that will boost your m3t@bøl!sm in the long term (like ginger or green tea haha) 🫚 🍵

Okay that’s all, I was doing that to remind myself and get some motivation but I hope it can help someone out there <333

I unintentionally made a 24h f@st today and idk how to feel

Im half proud half disappointed of myself Weird.

It’s easier to hide it when you do weightlifting lmao People will just assume that you got l3@ner by working out to see your muscles and it’s more conventionally acceptable than having an 3d.. I got the perfect excuse now hehe

My final goal is to still remain the sociable, always smiling friend 🌼 Faking 3@ting like I don’t fear it and laughing with the people I love None of them will notice and I’m so fine with that I don’t want to stop caring for them, they deserve the entire world I will not become the mean b!ch or the ghost of the friend group I didn’t r3l@pse because of them so they don’t have to suffer from the sh!t I put myself into I accepted the love they gave me and started trusting them without questioning their sincerity Having them entering my life is the best thing that ever happened to me They are the reason I didn’t r3l@pse sooner, always showering me with endless affection I really thought I was healed for good but I just can’t handle myself alone more than 1 MONTH APPARENTLY The funniest part is that they don’t even know that they were my biggest support I only need their presence and voice to feel better 💐 I’ll achieve this and step out being the best version of myself For me and for them🧚

Faking the spark that is fading ⭐️

My period make me say my deepest feelings lmao

Please stay safe everyone, at least try to not lose yourself to the point of losing and hurting the people you love.. they don’t deserve it <3

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt Lunch~ roasted chicken with mushroom pepper sauce and steamed vegetables + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ protein salad + green salad, 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1300

What a great day

Lmao i just thought about summer, I’m working in a restaurant next to the beach during this time and the good point is that I’m gonna move every day like crazy and dancing/partying every night but the bad side of it is that I will only survive on pizza and alcohol hahahaaaaa

I’m mean it’s the vibe and I shouldn’t be scared because, even with my poor summer d!3t, I always somehow loose w3!ght during this period. If it worked before why would it be different this time? But I’m still afraid.. I’m starting in 1 month and a half

I’m thinking one pizza a day + couples of drinks (and probably some extra snacks added) should be my maintenance actually 😭 I won’t have the time to count my daily intake anyway

Idk if I’ll be able to journal during this time because it gets really busy during the season so if I disappear, it’s probably because I’m doing fine, just busy. Also I won’t be able to w3!ght myself during this time but I will try to continue m3@sur!ng myself to track my progress or maintenance (and reassuring myself too let’s be honest here lmao)

Bonus points: my boss shows 3d patterns but don’t really link them to it. She always making small remarks and constantly comparing herself to me so I don’t know how I’ll be able to handle it this year.. I mean the cheque is good soooo yeah MONEY HAHAHA

I wake up and I feel sick, like I wanna thrøw⬆️

DAY 21

My nose (number one ALWAYS)

My freckles

My wrist

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎒

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with cucumber, granola/chickpeas, rare tempeh and Greek yogurt Snack~ 1 chicken sausage + 15 vegetables crackers Lunch~ scrambled eggs on toast with melon and salad + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ egg protein bowl + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1600 (max)

I walked out of this day controlling my guilt over the 15 crackers and the beginning of a potential binge so I feel proud of myself

'Why do you always add random numbers in your notes app'

-God forbid a girl has hobbies 😮‍💨