Lmao I Just Thought About Summer, I’m Working In A Restaurant Next To The Beach During This Time And

DAY 17

ahahahahahah ———— SO

A Pearl - Mitsky

TV - Billie Eilish

All-American B!tch - Olivia Rodrigo

I wanna be your girlfriend - Girl in Red

Sailor song - Gigi Perez

For the most popular but I could add so much more that’s crazy. I relate to A LOT of the songs in my playlists haha Probably a bit to much but G forbid a girl found the cheapest th3r@pist on earth (I don’t have Spotify premium)

DAY 24

If a m3t@bday count as a ch3@t day then yes

I do it because I don’t want to go back to the mentality state that I was 5 years ago but it’s actually really hard for me to 3@t so much in 1 day

If someone needs to hear this

(I wrote this because I myself needed a reminder lmao)

I took a rest day yesterday and was afraid that I’ll feel guilty this morning.. I FEEL SOO GOOD! My body is thanking me right now

Taking that as a reminder to not over exercise your muscles if you don’t want to hurt yourself and starting despising any kind of sports that you’re doing and make you feel good

That’s what I did last time and I ended up hating abs and running so bad that I didn’t attempt a proper run or any kind of abs exercises for 5 years??? So if it can help someone not falling into this h3ll of a loop, don’t overdo your body, let him rest AT LEAST 1 day a week if it’s aching (I’m not talking about normal stiffness here) in a weird way

If you’re doing a sport that you really like right now, PLEASE don’t overdo it because you’ll end up hating it, making you sad and more guilty. We don’t want to lose the muscle that we built, prioritise consistency instead of overdoing the discipline part. One rest day will still give you the bød¥ you’re aiming for AND the energy to continue <33

Reminder that one day won’t ruin everything, it’s okay, don’t punish yourself or b!ng3 because you ate one “b@d fø0d”, it will end up worse and we don’t want to make it worse, do we ? Listen to your bød¥ a bit more especially for the “exercise part”.

That’s why this time I just didn’t count my gym sessions here to separate what I 3@T and what I’m burn!ng. Treat workout as a thing that will boost your m3t@bøl!sm in the long term (like ginger or green tea haha) 🫚 🍵

Okay that’s all, I was doing that to remind myself and get some motivation but I hope it can help someone out there <333

I know that m3t@bday is important to trick my bødy for him to think I’m not restricting but DAMN I DONT FEEL GOOD RIGHT NOW

And it would have been a typical wieiad couple months ago just to maintain?? HOW ?

It feels like I binged even though there’s no way.. help! even for today, I fully know that I always over count but it just feels to much aaaaaah

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎀

Lunch~ fried chicken and omelette with salad Snack~ smoothie bowl Dinner~ green tea + steamed spicy rice with tofu and vegetables + papaya, tempeh and cucumber + a bag of seaweed

+ 2 ice Americano

Total:~ 1800 ✌️

body dysmorphia core

I’ll w3!ght myself tomorrow and I’m scared (even if I løst 1 cm around my W.. anyway)

My head is spinning, it feels like I’m dancing with the stars

Still stuck at 53… at least my strength remains the same as when I started I guess FREE ME FROM THIS JAIIIIIL😫

I wake up and I feel sick, like I wanna thrøw⬆️