DAY 17

body dysmorphia core

DAY 30 youhouhou

For my stats I won’t have my real CW right now BUT

Wa!st~ 71-72–> 65

@rms~ 30–> 26-27

CW~ 56–> 53

My reality check is that maybe reaching 60 around my wa!st in 2 months was a little bit to much lmao (I still have two weeks but I don’t now if it’s humanly possible)

And my @rms always been the most difficult part so for now I am happy that’s it’s not going up (BUT PLEASE GO THE FCKING DØWN OMG)

I’ll update the CW on Sunday :)

Overall I’ll feel happy and miserable at the same time so it’s kinda weird lol

Oh and my cøll@rbøn3s are visible now and my h!p bøn3s just starting

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💃

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Snack/Lunch~ 1 corn ice cream + 1 onigiri spicy chicken Diner~ the other half of a vegetarian pizza with tempeh on top + papaya + cucumber

Total:~ 1400 💫

DAY 4

UGW: 40

I never been to this point, people started worrying before I could. I think that’s because I’m short and when I løs3w3!ght it’s rapidly noticeable. My lw was 41 or something (or little løw3r [?]) I don’t remember. It was 5 years ago. But I think my ugw is more to tell myself to not go løw3r.. I don’t want to worry people again and being forced into “r3cøv3ry” one more time. I don’t want to see my parents' teary eyes and watch my father delaying the moment he has to go to work just to make sure I 3@t something.. it really broke me at the time. At the time, I didn’t realise that it could impact other around me that way and I don’t want my friends and relatives to go through this once more just because I kinda f~ck3d up again. When I come back, if people ask me, I’ll just say “Did I? Idk.. I guess I’ve just been really active in the past month :)” which is actually the reality soooo half lies half true haha

But yeah that’s the reason my ugw isn’t løw3r sorry for this self centred story, thank you for reading it <3

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎥

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ mix fruit plate Snack~ protein bar Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 apple + 1 green tea

Total :~ 800

DAY 22

The typical “Are sure you gonna 3@t more”

Aaaaaand one that I found terrible “ If I push you, you’ll roll ”……. This one hurts pretty bad The funny part is that I wasn’t even f@t, I wasn’t sk!nny either, just normal lmao

I feel so full of water right now, nothing can enter my bødy ahahah

But I’m thirsty…

I was worried this morning because my shirt felt tight but after m3@sur!ng and questioning myself I came to the conclusion that it was because of my bøøbs AHAHAH GREAT DAY EVERYONE

DAY 23

Idk anymore haha, I sure act like I am on a daily basis but overall I don’t think I’m happy, more like grateful about the events in my life and my surroundings, friends and family

I started this journey to numb my feelings.. well I think it’s working pretty well lmao