I Know That M3t@bday Is Important To Trick My Bødy For Him To Think I’m Not Restricting But DAMN I

DAY 21

My nose (number one ALWAYS)

My freckles

My wrist

“OMG I eat sooo clean, make me feel soooo heathy” I say as my stomach rumble for the Idontremenber time

DAY 15

I was never able to before but I need to look “healthy enough” for other not to ask me questions Pls leave me alone🧚

DAY 30 youhouhou

For my stats I won’t have my real CW right now BUT

Wa!st~ 71-72–> 65

@rms~ 30–> 26-27

CW~ 56–> 53

My reality check is that maybe reaching 60 around my wa!st in 2 months was a little bit to much lmao (I still have two weeks but I don’t now if it’s humanly possible)

And my @rms always been the most difficult part so for now I am happy that’s it’s not going up (BUT PLEASE GO THE FCKING DØWN OMG)

I’ll update the CW on Sunday :)

Overall I’ll feel happy and miserable at the same time so it’s kinda weird lol

Oh and my cøll@rbøn3s are visible now and my h!p bøn3s just starting

DAY 17

ahahahahahah ———— SO

A Pearl - Mitsky

TV - Billie Eilish

All-American B!tch - Olivia Rodrigo

I wanna be your girlfriend - Girl in Red

Sailor song - Gigi Perez

For the most popular but I could add so much more that’s crazy. I relate to A LOT of the songs in my playlists haha Probably a bit to much but G forbid a girl found the cheapest th3r@pist on earth (I don’t have Spotify premium)

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🦎

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ Salmon wrap Snack~ 1 ice tea + 1 ice Americano + 2 lowc@l lychee candy Dinner~ Japanese Soba salad and 2 pcs of tofu filled with meat + 1 serving of shirataki + 2 apples and 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

Love the people around me, they gave those 2 pcs of tofu out of nowhere, it was delicious 🌺They are so nice <333

I almost fck up my day with a craving but I found apples and lowc@l ice cream so it’s okay I’m at my limit tho

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 👒

Breakfast~ 3 coffee + chicken and tempeh with lots of veggies + 1 omelette + fruit platter + 1/2 small lamingtons cake + little sweet steamed bread Lunch~ 1 ice Americano Snack~ 2 banana mas + 1 ice Americano + 1 coffee Dinner~ rice and chicken curry with sambal and veggies + corn ice cream

Total:~ 1500

Lots of coffee today lmao

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎒

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with cucumber, granola/chickpeas, rare tempeh and Greek yogurt Snack~ 1 chicken sausage + 15 vegetables crackers Lunch~ scrambled eggs on toast with melon and salad + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ egg protein bowl + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1600 (max)

I walked out of this day controlling my guilt over the 15 crackers and the beginning of a potential binge so I feel proud of myself

WDYM I have more strength now ?? I mean I’m happy with it but the rationale part of my brain don’t understand right now

I’m entering a weird mode when I need someone to 3@t with either way I would just skip it until dinner time

I basically forcing føød in my bødy right now just to keep it functional and I’m exhausted because it’s the finals and I’m really active + I don’t wanna g@!n all the w3!ght back so I have to be extra careful to 3@t “enough” from now on

I have mixed feelings about the stage that I’m in right now lmao