DAY 9

My final goal is to still remain the sociable, always smiling friend 🌼 Faking 3@ting like I don’t fear it and laughing with the people I love None of them will notice and I’m so fine with that I don’t want to stop caring for them, they deserve the entire world I will not become the mean b!ch or the ghost of the friend group I didn’t r3l@pse because of them so they don’t have to suffer from the sh!t I put myself into I accepted the love they gave me and started trusting them without questioning their sincerity Having them entering my life is the best thing that ever happened to me They are the reason I didn’t r3l@pse sooner, always showering me with endless affection I really thought I was healed for good but I just can’t handle myself alone more than 1 MONTH APPARENTLY The funniest part is that they don’t even know that they were my biggest support I only need their presence and voice to feel better 💐 I’ll achieve this and step out being the best version of myself For me and for them🧚

Faking the spark that is fading ⭐️

My period make me say my deepest feelings lmao

Please stay safe everyone, at least try to not lose yourself to the point of losing and hurting the people you love.. they don’t deserve it <3

DAY 5

TW toxic

I used to watch a lot of mukbang content before but I don’t anymore I still watch spsi vs spsk tho (over and over again haha) and now I watch W-H (iykyk), they are really toxic in my opinion, I don’t like them and it’s scary to think that teenagers and children can end up watching they video (that why I won’t give any other info) BUT let’s say that it’s my m3@nspø of the day

DAY 23

Idk anymore haha, I sure act like I am on a daily basis but overall I don’t think I’m happy, more like grateful about the events in my life and my surroundings, friends and family

I started this journey to numb my feelings.. well I think it’s working pretty well lmao

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

Since I r3l@ps3d I løst something like 5 cm around my w@!st and 3 around my biceps (my upper arms are my biggest insecurity) !!!

AAAAAAAH I’M SO HAPPY

Remember that you can gain a bit of w3!ght but compare it to your m3@sur3ments can help you not freaking out

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🧶

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ rice with chicken, tempeh, little bit of noodles aaaand tiny little veggies + 1 ice green tea Snack~ + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ instant noodles with one egg + Greek yogurt with toping (granola, chickpeas and fruits)

Total:~ 1500 :)

I feel bad about what I @te.. Not because I feel stuff or hate my bødy but just cause I @te

I feel light and comfortable but just the fact that I took the liberty of having slightly more than what I was supposed to does not feel good at all

Trying to convince my dumb brain right now that I did not eat more than usual, just not on the same time but it not willing to understand apparently

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💫

… well yeah

Anyway the usual

Bowl: 3 pieces of fried tofu: ~200 Kimchi (about 2 tablespoons): ~20 Bean sprouts (about 1/3 cup): ~10 Sambal (1 tablespoon): ~20 White rice (about 100g cooked): ~150 → Bowl total: ~400

Plate: 3 pieces of fried tempeh: ~230 Papaya (~100g): ~50 Cucumber (~60g): ~10 → Plate total: ~290 kcal

2 Green tea: 0 1 ice Americano: ~10

Total of the day: ~700

Don’t get me wrong, I DESPISE having my p3r!od BUT the post m3nstruat!on effect on my bødy and mindset is just the best feeling ever

Self discipline feels so powerful