What I Eat In A Day 1

bfs brother again, I asked my bf how many kcal smth had and the brother said "a shit ton, eat it, you're gonna be so fat".

I actually feel unwell and I think I should eat smth, but bro is successfully leading me away from it ToT

what I eat in a day 4

-1400kcals start

i am at boyfriends, can't monitor food perfectly, I was given semolina (idk if that translation is right bruh, kasza manna in polish tho) and I refused since it's pretty high in kcal and not that much protein to justify it so I'm gonna start the day with dinner and either skip breakfast or eat it after I get back home

dinner:

+530kcal MAYBE? and 28g protein MAYBE?

I didn't cook it, I didn't plate it, I'm full on guessing, please correct me if I'm way off

supper:

+144kcal, 20g protein pudding

i also added cinnamon again

+400kcal on chocolate idgaf

and lots of tea

end: -326kcal and 48g protein

I need to stop being sick ASAP, I need exercise

yeah so turns out you can't control eds, I just wanted to have a calorie deficit but starving makes me feel so good now. I'm not gonna let myself relapse, I'm still going to eat because I don't wanna completely lose it but oh it's so back.

what I eat in a day 63

-1300

+158kcal, 20g protein pudding

+690kcal wine with friend...

+238kcal, 10g protein bar

+1050kcal, 48g 19 mcdonalds nuggets (around 940kcal for nuggets and the rest I'm guessing for 2 sauces)

-444kcal walking

end: 392kcal, 78g protein

honestly I don't mind how my body looks naked. the thing I hate is how clothes lay over it, makes me fat.

I used to be skinny and clearly anorexic and I've semi recovered I think. I feel so weird using the ana community to lose weight again but it's genuinely so effective omg, I've done it before I can do it again. I no longer wanna be the skinniest but I need that weight down like does anyone get this or feels the same?

what I eat in a day 25

-1400

-60kcal exercise

breakfast:

+502kcal, 30g

+150kcal of random shit because I was snacking while cooking for bf again

+37kcal chocolate

+50kcal, 4g cauliflower

dinner:

+423kcal, 27g lasagne, same as yesterday

-25kcal workout

+113kcal chocolate

end: -210kcal, 61g protein

what I eat in a day 75

-1300

+378kcal, 25g pesto pasta with mozarella

+90kcal, 1g toffifee

+265kcal, 19g I made a mug cake with my new protein powder and it came out SO dry so I only ate half of it + some Nutella off the top

end: -567kcal, 45g protein

what I eat in a day 46

-1300

I don't even know if there's a point in counting today, Easter + birthday is gonna go over limit for sure so...

and also I don't have a scale at my bfs house! so it's not like I can weigh portions, either way that wouldn't help cause I didn't cook the food so I know nothing about it, I'm gonna just be very easy on myself today I guess

probably ate around 2000kcal, I was very active today, running around and stuff, so probably burned some too. but as I've said, counting was impossible to do besides just guessing so...

my bfs brother is a great motivation. he brought mcflurry for all of us and I said no I can't have that. he asked why so I said that I'm fat and can't. he said I'm crazy but that I should definitely eat so I do get fat so that he could laugh at me lol