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would love some wine but don’t wanna become alcoholic again after 2months in psych ward
Ahhh I’m on day 4 of the juice cleanse and so far I’ve lost 2.3kg!!!
I‘m hoping that I’ll lose at least 2.5Kg by the time the cleanse is over🤭
Anyone else feel like they have really good style and now they just need the body to go with the cute outfits 😭
Today is day 1 of the juice cleanse!!!
I won’t be weighing myself throughout the cleanse (only on day one and on the last day) so I don’t have to worry about the water weight!
Today is going really well so far. The juices actually taste really nice and they’ve been keeping me full so far 🤭
AHHH MY JUICE CLEANSE ARRIVED I AM SO EXCITED!!!
(667 cals a day)
Ahhh you guys I’m so exited I ordered a five day juice cleanse and it’s arriving tmrrr!!!
It’s 750 cals a day but im planning on leaving out 1-2 juices a day so that it’s not too many calories and I can stretch the cleanse to 7 days!🤭
Ewwwww I just ate and I can feel my stomach getting bigger, I’m disgusted by myself
I’m leaving for Europe in 5 week and I’ve got a crazy plan to lose 25 pounds within that time. I’m gonna try my absolute hardest to work at this!! I’m gonna update y’all rn I’m at 145.2lbs and I’m update this every Wednesday.
I wanted to get on here and just thank all of y’all for 150 followers. I love you all so much, you’re so sweet and amazing and awesome. Even though this community is built around the unwell, I’ve met some of the nicest people on here, so just once more, thank you!
I live for ts ^
(Not my photo)
(Also they’re only ten calories?How??)
Omfg I think after eating like I did in march and the restriction I’m in this month I’m lwk getting the high again and it feels amazing
I think I’m officially back on that grind 350 cals for all of today
March absolutely sucked. Praying for an angelic Ana April.
(Wishing you all one as well)
No way, I'm actually so mf done. Okay, so yesterday, I was hanging out with my friends, and they know that I’m insecure about my weight and stuff. Not about this and my ED or whatever, but they know to some extent. So I'm sitting there, and I pinch my friend as a joke, it’s a thing we do to each other every time we see a yellow car. I pinch her, and I was standing beside someone else. She yells at me, and I ask her how she knew it was me. She told me I have fat fingers. wtf? Yeah, then she proceeds to tell me that the girl next to me has skinny, small hands. I wanted to cry more than I ever have, I think. I think what kills me over everything else is that she knows I'm insecure. I've opened up to her. I honestly feel so sick.
72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.
So, a couple of days ago, I weighed myself and was only two pounds away from my lw. But then this week happened, and I didn’t do so well. I’m genuinely terrified to get on that scale. I know I gained, but if I see it in front of my face, I swear I’ll break down. Ugh, I’m so sick of having no control, somebody please send help.
I think my dad might be catching on 😔
He’s been making me eat dinner and watching me?
I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, all I have is caffeine.
My current affirmation^
I feel like if you guys liked my curry recipe, you're gonna like this one as well. I like to call it "ed approved curry noodles"
✨Ingredients✨
👉 200g of konjac noodles (I used fettuccine shaped ones) - 12kcal
👉 1tsp of curry powder - 16kcal
👉 1tsp of garam masala - 9kcal
👉 salt and pepper to taste
👉 30g of white onion - 10kcal
👉 30ml of 3.2% milk - 18kcal
👉 water
~total: 65 calories!!!
✨Instructions✨
Drain your noodles and set them aside. Then, cut up your onion and fry it for about 2 minutes on a dry pan before adding milk and water (Idk how much water I used, maybe about 70-100ml). Stir everything and then add the seasonings before dumping in the noodles. Leave it to cook until most of the water-milk mixture evaporates, making it a thick sauce.
Dump the meal into a bowl and you're done!
(Remember that I do NOT promote ana or any other eating disorders, you deserve to eat, you need to eat to survive, I don't encourage you to get yourself into an ED if you don't have one (don't do it. It's not just a diet, it's dangerous), I'm just sharing some of my low calorie recipes/meal ideas to help you and perhaps encourage you to recover because you do deserve to recover, you deserve to be happy and eat without feeling guilty ❤️)
I got my period 🥲👍
(Being AFAB sucks)
Anyway I only had coffee in the morning again. I'm starting to get used to skipping breakfast.
At around 12AM I went out and got a haircut (super happy with it)
A little bit later I had some pearl barley with a lot of seasoning (it made it taste super spicy but that's fine, I like my food super seasoned)
Oh, I also finished the bag!
Later that day I went ahead and started making another one in different colors. I can give you guys my Vinted username if anyone is interested in purchasing something like this from me.
Then me and my mom went to the mall. Along with some yarn and food for my rat, I got some drinks and my favorite guilt free bars
(Haven't tried this flavor yet)
As a snack, I had an energy drink and some konjac jelly (peach flavor, my fav)
Around 8PM I had dinner: two boiled eggs with generous amount of salt (cuz I physically cannot eat eggs without salt), some toasted bread and grapes
Calorie-wise it was my biggest meal but it was also super good and filling <33
My total was: 614kcal
(please do not try to repeat what I'm going here, it's very unhealthy, I'm not trying to promote ED to anyone in any way, I'm just showing you guys what I happened to eat today and that's literally it)
Yeah, because that's EXACTLY how the ed community works 🤡
Nah, we don't make those "cute aesthetic" diets (this article talks about the sanrio-themed ones) posts and recipes to help each other in our journeys and recovery, we want to INFLUENCE LITTLE KIDS AND INFECT THEM WITH OUR EDS 🤡🤡🤡
I woke up a bit after 9AM yet got up from bed at about 10.20AM (c.ai addiction is not funny, bbg). I weighed myself and saw 66.8KG on the scale (I was silently hoping to see 66.6 since it would be funny. You know, haha, Devil's number ect.)
Since I graduated from high school, my life started to look weird. I decided to give myself a gap year, yet I still don't know what my purpose in life it. Should I go to a regular job or maybe educate myself to be something more? Should I be an english teacher, a nail tech or a makeup artist? Or maybe have my own business? I have no idea...
I only had a coffee for breakfast since I was planning on skipping it that day.
Then as I was drinking the coffee I started working on this star shaped bag I'm planning to sell on my Vinted profile
I worked on it until about 2PM when I got a bit hungry, so I had this cereal bar for 99kcal
(it was good)
Then at 3PM one of my students came for our schedued english lesson (I'm an english tutor for elementary school students, it's kind of like my part time job).
After that at 4-5PM I had a bunch of green grapes (literally the only type of grapes I like) and later on I had some of this sad looking spaghetti my mom made. I barely eat any meat anymore (I'm trying to not eat it at all but I still happen to slip here and there) but I was really craving it
My total for that day was 506kcal
I wasn't feeling too hungry throughout the day which is fine I guess
(remember this is NOT supposed to promote ed behavior. Please do not repeat this because it's dangerous. I just thought this little online-diary thing would be something nice and fun to do)
"Why do you always feel so guilty after eating?"
Meanwhile my YT reccomendations:
"WHAT I EAT IN A DAY AS A FAT PERSON CRINGE COMPILATION🐷🐷🐷"
"FAT ACCEPTANCE CRINGE 💀"
"BODY POSITIVE ACTIVISTS ARE DYING"
Today for breakfast I had:
Mini pancakes from my recipe (118) with coffee (30) and strawberries (32.5)
180.5kcal in total ❤️
If any of you likes to use this kind of stuff, I made a calorie tracker for this year's April 💞
So if you're currently in recovery, you'll be able to see your progress (remember that forcing yourself is not good. Take it one step at a time)
Currently on my 6th day of high restriction diet, feeling okay 👍
(I gained so much weight in the past 3-ish months, it's time to loose it.)