Manifesting And Working Hard Towards THIS🤞🤞

I'll be honest I am an absent friend like I would go out of my way to make you feel happy and I would definitely take your side when you're venting about someone else to me but I just tend to live in my own world and suck at keeping up the communication regular but if you with or without any reason start ignoring me and then drop obvious clues that you're ignoring me.....I'm sorry but you've lost me as your friend

If you think you can control me by ignoring me and I would ask you what happened you're wrong. This is a manipulation and I am not falling for it

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you don’t have to wait until you hit rock bottom to start over or decide it’s time to improve

the very first step of getting over your fears is to have them. just like the first step to getting better is being worse than you wish you were, and the first step to becoming who you want to be is being who you are. don’t let your shame back you into a corner. you can only grow from here.

DATE : 10-3-25

Aim: IIT Bombay,CS

2/100

I started my day with watching my fav series for like 4 hours straight after that I had my lunch and then I got to work. I completed 1 whole chapter of maths.

5hr 3min on ypt

I don't want to be a burden to my parents, I really really want to be their pride. The one who fulfills my and their dreams. I want to be a role model for my small brother so that no matter what he has me as the safety net. But here I am, I failed my exam, it's a first and I'm not even studying properly ,the exam is in 2 days and I am just so horrible. I couldn't even keep the promise I made to myself. What if everything turns out so bad that I can't even trust myself?

The success you've been looking for is hidden in the work you've been avoiding. The life you want for yourself is literally waiting on you, you just have to put in the work first. Read that again.

I just had my retest today and I would like to thank God , because I passed my retest. Thank you so much god for listening to me. I promise this session I am gonna aim for 96%. I am going to study consistently everyday. I am going to prove it to myself that I can do it. All the mistakes I made in 11th, I'm gonna correct them now. I would just like to retell myself that it's never too late to correct your mistakes or it's ever too late to start studying. You can do it. All the best

(And yes, I'll keep updating..)

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Do not be afraid to speak up and take up space, babe. 💞

Am I depressed ? I do need a hug. I can't even cry anymore cuz my mom would taunt me about it and I don't want to hear them. I wouldn't be able to take it anymore. I just feel like my life just gets sadder and sadder cuz I rn remembering all the things that I did because I felt lonely and insecure and yk i just needed a friend who had me as their priority. I was so used to be the third friend that always had to see my other friends talking about things that went over my head and I used to just laugh to blend that's what I've been doing till now. And it just gets even sadder . My mom is making it worse and honestly idk how but she's actually making it worse maybe it's because I've realised that it's not normal to be this way or I've reached or maybe it just added up but please god do I really need this big of a character development?? When I have no one to actually talk about the things that matter and not the small stupid things that barely contribute. Why am I so opinion less and clueless in this world where everybody knows what they want and I just look around judge myself according to other people. People who are smarter than me and then people who are not smarter than me and then I pick a choice .....like please at this point I really just need a guide. Someone who could just shield me. Please help me

At this point I'm not sure whether my mindset is good or not because no person should be this sad and lonely and depressed