At This Point I'm Not Sure Whether My Mindset Is Good Or Not Because No Person Should Be This Sad And

Agar phone aapka kharab Hua hai toh isme meri kya galti....Maine toh dnd mode kl raat ko hi hta diya tha toh phir mujh pr kyu Chila rhe ho .......

My mom read my diary....and everything is a mess

Dude you were too harsh with your callout😭😭

Look at you. Browsing the same four apps over and over again looking to find your parents' love that you never got, from strangers' validation.

We all deserve someone who can read us better than we do.

I cried today :( I dont get why my mother has to shout shrilly at me when she knows I'm in a hurry and things are not going through a schedule. I was booking a cab today and she is shouting at me for taking so long to book a cab when I do it every week. She is making it out as my fault . It's not my fault your phone is so dumb and always hanging and crashing and not working when I want it to work at the crucial moment . I also know its been 30 minutes already no need to come and shout at the freaking top of your lungs . Like bitch you made me cry. If you dont wanna contribute to anything nice in my life then why you need to come and shout and make me cry.

Its 12:55am and I'll study as if my exam is tomorrow...I'll update you on how it goes

honestly, I think all I needed was for my bestfriend to come and scold me and then help me to make a plan to reach my goals...

I cried yesterday sitting on my bathroom floor and I almost had anxiety attack (idk I felt so anxious and frustered and almost cried and my chest was feeling tight) when my best friend ignored and slightly humiliated me and I cried while writing the previous post.

I just hope I'm not in depression cuz I dont want to be in depression. I truly want to correct my life and i promise that I start with my studies.

I promise myself that there will be a day when I'll be content and there would be no sadness in my mind.

I'll be honest I am an absent friend like I would go out of my way to make you feel happy and I would definitely take your side when you're venting about someone else to me but I just tend to live in my own world and suck at keeping up the communication regular but if you with or without any reason start ignoring me and then drop obvious clues that you're ignoring me.....I'm sorry but you've lost me as your friend

If you think you can control me by ignoring me and I would ask you what happened you're wrong. This is a manipulation and I am not falling for it

For the past few years I've always cried alone, in my bathroom to be specific. I cry alone not because I feel ashamed of being vulnerable in front of others but because I know that later on they would bring it up probably to mock me or gossip about it to the neighbours thinking it's funny. It's not, it really stings okay..... if only moms could understand this.