Dude You Were Too Harsh With Your Callout😭😭

DATE : 13-3-25

Aim: IIT Bombay,CS

5/100 So I didn't post anything for the last two days cuz I was exhausted. But anyways yesterday was my last exam and yesterday I also went to my coaching so it was a hectic day. Now even though my school exams are over, I still have my coaching's reshuffling test to worry about and I really need to study properly or else I'll remain behind. I have 11 more days. and it's not even full uninterrupted 11days, no, Holi is day after tomorrow. I have school and coaching both in between and and I have just started with the syllabus, I have to cover everything from scratch cuz I wasted most of my 11th but it changes now. Anyways enough of my ramblings. hours studied on ypt today:

Give up your bad habits and do atleast one thing better than yesterday, improve yourself day by day, don’t ponder much on people’s thought and comments they don’t even know the tip of your inner self. They might know some sides which your parents don’t but realize that they still don’t really know who you actually are, so their judgements are not applicable to you. Just go and become better than yesterday,, DO better than yesterday. This is YOUR success, No one, not even your parents will care that much, You have to take care and pain for your success, No one will give a shit. It is your life, Your goals are something no one would understand not even your parents, your definition of success is different than everybody’s so take care, take pain

I'll be honest I am an absent friend like I would go out of my way to make you feel happy and I would definitely take your side when you're venting about someone else to me but I just tend to live in my own world and suck at keeping up the communication regular but if you with or without any reason start ignoring me and then drop obvious clues that you're ignoring me.....I'm sorry but you've lost me as your friend

If you think you can control me by ignoring me and I would ask you what happened you're wrong. This is a manipulation and I am not falling for it

I try to be the person with low requirements cuz I genuinely feel that's my only plus point but it's sad when you realise your "friends" take advantage of it

I really really regret all m mistakes last year....all I needed was someone to help me out .....all I needed was a hug ......all I really needed was someone to listen to me without judging and to explain things that are common sense for people. I know I can still do it though but I'm still alone. I feel like im always alone

My rant on Yuri after watching amnse

I absolutely loved this series so much I am waiting for the next season. I just finished watching the 16th episode and I'm just so angry at Yuri. I just HATE him, like you don't deserve to be sad during the countdown because Jay Jay wasn't there. You literally forced her into a marriage without even asking for her consent, you don't even care about her feelings because in your mind you think you're saving her from Keifer but the only person she needs saving is YOU.

I mean she even confessed to you that she likes Keifer but you're still putting her in a difficult position by again and again mentioning you love her (I don't think you do .....cuz you're discarding her feelings). Yuri is trying to play it of as if he gave up Ella for Keifer but honey I bet you probably weren't even an option for her.

And to me it just looks like a competition, like he's desperate to have Jay Jay so that he doesn't loses the girl to Keifer AGAIN. I mean he literally compared Keifer to his father in his face so that he could make him back off. YURI, YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE A LOVER OR A FRIEND.

I don't think I could ever hate my life. I can hate days, hate people, hate things, hate situations (absolutely hate situations) but never myself or my life because deep down I know that I still deserve better and that I'm gonna get better, everything's gonna get better even though everything is falling apart rn, even though I'm just trying to numb everything through addictions.

The success you've been looking for is hidden in the work you've been avoiding. The life you want for yourself is literally waiting on you, you just have to put in the work first. Read that again.

My mom read my diary....and everything is a mess

the very first step of getting over your fears is to have them. just like the first step to getting better is being worse than you wish you were, and the first step to becoming who you want to be is being who you are. don’t let your shame back you into a corner. you can only grow from here.