I Just Had My Retest Today And I Would Like To Thank God , Because I Passed My Retest. Thank You So Much

I really really regret all m mistakes last year....all I needed was someone to help me out .....all I needed was a hug ......all I really needed was someone to listen to me without judging and to explain things that are common sense for people. I know I can still do it though but I'm still alone. I feel like im always alone

this is me

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you don’t have to wait until you hit rock bottom to start over or decide it’s time to improve

this is the most wholesome incorrect but still correct sea fam quote ever

Percy: You came to my graduation?

Poseidon: Of course I did! I'm proud of you.

Percy: But this is mortal stuff! I'm not saving the world or defeating Olympus's enemies.

Poseidon: That's true. But Percy, do you realize that you've put more effort into graduating from high school than saving the world? If it's that important to you, then it's important to me.

Poseidon: Besides, there's a reason why your sword converts to a pen form. I want you to know that I support you having interests and a life outside of fighting.

I cried today :( I dont get why my mother has to shout shrilly at me when she knows I'm in a hurry and things are not going through a schedule. I was booking a cab today and she is shouting at me for taking so long to book a cab when I do it every week. She is making it out as my fault . It's not my fault your phone is so dumb and always hanging and crashing and not working when I want it to work at the crucial moment . I also know its been 30 minutes already no need to come and shout at the freaking top of your lungs . Like bitch you made me cry. If you dont wanna contribute to anything nice in my life then why you need to come and shout and make me cry.

DATE : 13-3-25

Aim: IIT Bombay,CS

5/100 So I didn't post anything for the last two days cuz I was exhausted. But anyways yesterday was my last exam and yesterday I also went to my coaching so it was a hectic day. Now even though my school exams are over, I still have my coaching's reshuffling test to worry about and I really need to study properly or else I'll remain behind. I have 11 more days. and it's not even full uninterrupted 11days, no, Holi is day after tomorrow. I have school and coaching both in between and and I have just started with the syllabus, I have to cover everything from scratch cuz I wasted most of my 11th but it changes now. Anyways enough of my ramblings. hours studied on ypt today:

Manifesting and Working hard towards THIS🤞🤞

I have always seen videos and blogs and numerous articles telling you how you can achieve your best self with highest potential. And many people want to achieve their highest potential....many people work towards it but I've never heard people saying that they want to be their favourite self. Where they achieve their true goals something they truly wanted to do since childhood . Something that just makes them happy instead of joining the rat race and seeing where they want to make more money and just become whatever they want to be as a kid . I know this sounds so naive and tbh this is naive but rn I wish that I become successful so that my little brother could depend on me and without any fear of expectation from other . I wish he could pursue his childhood dream because whenever I see his passion and the pretty smile on his face when he talks about it I just want to make sure that no matter what happens he is able to acheive his childhood dream. I don't have a passion and yes I'm going to run after money but I want to do it for him so that instead of joining the rat race he can fulfill his passion and become his favourite self.

I don't want to be a burden to my parents, I really really want to be their pride. The one who fulfills my and their dreams. I want to be a role model for my small brother so that no matter what he has me as the safety net. But here I am, I failed my exam, it's a first and I'm not even studying properly ,the exam is in 2 days and I am just so horrible. I couldn't even keep the promise I made to myself. What if everything turns out so bad that I can't even trust myself?

Today was my result day and I got 64%....never in my entire life have I gotten less than 90. But this year I was just plain arrogant , I wanted to get good marks by just studying on the last days and I was getting annoyed that it wasn't working in class 11 because for the previous years it was working out. So in the end I actually failed physics and gave retest for it and barely passed. My parents expressed their disappointment and honestly I'm dissapointed in myself too.....but I FAILED PHYSICS THEN WHY ARE THEY TELLING ME TO GET MATHS TUTION? I mean Ik my maths werent that good but I failed physics not maths besides out of PCM my highest was in maths.........................but idk how to speak about this to my papa