I Started Out This Academic Session With Lot Of Determination But It All Faded Because Of Distractions

I have always seen videos and blogs and numerous articles telling you how you can achieve your best self with highest potential. And many people want to achieve their highest potential....many people work towards it but I've never heard people saying that they want to be their favourite self. Where they achieve their true goals something they truly wanted to do since childhood . Something that just makes them happy instead of joining the rat race and seeing where they want to make more money and just become whatever they want to be as a kid . I know this sounds so naive and tbh this is naive but rn I wish that I become successful so that my little brother could depend on me and without any fear of expectation from other . I wish he could pursue his childhood dream because whenever I see his passion and the pretty smile on his face when he talks about it I just want to make sure that no matter what happens he is able to acheive his childhood dream. I don't have a passion and yes I'm going to run after money but I want to do it for him so that instead of joining the rat race he can fulfill his passion and become his favourite self.

The success you've been looking for is hidden in the work you've been avoiding. The life you want for yourself is literally waiting on you, you just have to put in the work first. Read that again.

why does my mother always make me feel guilty about wanting to eat something sweet after my meal. and it's not as if I'm demanding a desert. I literally just want one bite of something sweet and she just rants out when i try to eat a few raisins or like a piece of mango or watermelon or maybe just one biscuit.

For the past few years I've always cried alone, in my bathroom to be specific. I cry alone not because I feel ashamed of being vulnerable in front of others but because I know that later on they would bring it up probably to mock me or gossip about it to the neighbours thinking it's funny. It's not, it really stings okay..... if only moms could understand this.

Dude you were too harsh with your callout😭😭

Look at you. Browsing the same four apps over and over again looking to find your parents' love that you never got, from strangers' validation.

At this point I'm not sure whether my mindset is good or not because no person should be this sad and lonely and depressed

So true

the issue with 2:15 is thats already 4 pm

Not to get too deep on my first post but did anyone else have such deeply rooted issues with their self worth for so long that they thought as a teen that their only redeeming feature was being "low maintenance" and now you give yourself guilt pangs asking for any more than the barest minimum in virtually any relationship because asking for things might negate your good quality which is" doesn't ask for things"

I won't.....I would keep this to myself and pretend it is normal because honestly at this point it is normal for me to not tell anything to anyone. I try and share so minuscule things of my everyday life to my friends to make sure that I never share the actual important stuff of my life to them. i always feel there's a wall separating them from me because their parents are so lenient whereas my parents are very strict.

How do I explain this desire to no longer explain anything to anyone?

My mom read my diary....and everything is a mess