DAY 27

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🤍

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 ice Americano + fried chicken with mushrooms sauce + 1 omelette and veggies Snack~ 1 ice Americano Dinner~ Salmon salad + chicken broth

Total:~ 1000 🌼

I wanted to have a healthier version for lunch but they were out of stock 😭 still pretty height in protein tho so it’s okay

DAY 25

maybe my collarbones? I don’t really know I suffer from bødy dysmørph!@ hahaha

Post m3t@bday update I’m not feeling bloated? I’ll take it

DAY 19

Yes a couple, and they all reacted differently

My family was worried a lot especially my parents, they tried to do their best

My best friend at the time scolded me (it was funny not in a harsh way)

One of my dear friend noticed and told me out of nowhere “you gonna 3@t right?”

Some of my other friends understood because they were struggling or struggled with something similar but kept an eye on me just to be sure I was okay

I have this friend that I love so much but don’t see that often, who told me that the fact that I was leaving for 4 months was worrying because maybe I could rel@pse… they couldn’t been more right AHAHAHAH do they see the future or something??

Love when bødy dysmørph!@ is in vacation

Please stay where you are and don’t come back☺️, the longer the better <33 …. That’s what she said

Idk what to expect from the sc@le and it’s k!ll!ng me right now

I’m so scared

Maybe one day I’ll be able to see myself the way other perceive me.

DAY 20

5 years ago It worked It became an obsession I couldn’t stop I started to r3cøvered, felt happy and starting to get better (in a good way) I r3l@psed ✌️

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 cheese bread + 2 roasted sausages Snack~ smoothies bowl + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 slice of cheese + 2 slice of bread + chicken broth + løwc@l lychee candy

Total:~ 1900

I ate a bit more today so I don’t really feel comfortable but I have to be honest with myself, I felt so weak today, couldn’t concentrate on anything and it’s probably because I don’t count my c@lør!3s in an accurate way so I end up more exhausted than I should be for the amount I’m over calculating everyday.. I shouldn’t complain about it because that means that it’s working and anyway, I did it myself to myself but I can’t talk to anyone about that, I don’t have anyone to talk to cause it’s not their f¥ck!ng business yk and I can handle it on my own. I just feel a teeny tiny bit down and it feels like here people understand at least because we are all in, comforting each other, which feel sad at the same time, thank you <33

You are all enough and beautiful!!

Little thing that can help (eventually?) First of all this is a daily reminder that one day that you consider bad will not mess everything up, don’t give up just for one day IT’S OKAY 💚💚

Tonight I indulged myself to have a snack, 3/4 of an apple and 15 vegetables crackers with a little bit of chickpeas left from my dinner.. right after I started to freak out, saying to myself that it was way too much and that I ruined everything I was genuinely scared and felling like a 🐖 I tried to take a step back after some time and decided to see how my bødy would react to this (NOT AT ALL) b!nge I just had. Like wtf girl 300 is not that bad when you only had no more and probably less than 1300 during the day CALM THE FCK DOWN And you know what? Turns out my bødy was just hungry haha :) I feel good, satisfied and not bloated at all So to anyone out there that is starting to feel really bad because you choose to 3@t something more than what you planned for the day it’s gonna be okay <33 + if you’re like me you probably over counting/estmating anyway haha It’s okay to have a little snack once in a while even if you already had a m3t@bday, maybe you were just hungry and this snack won’t make you bloated

except if you stressed it out to much or you let yourself have an B episode because of it… it will only make things worse

Hope it reassured the people who needed to hear it 🧚🐞