ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🧶

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ rice with chicken, tempeh, little bit of noodles aaaand tiny little veggies + 1 ice green tea Snack~ + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ instant noodles with one egg + Greek yogurt with toping (granola, chickpeas and fruits)

Total:~ 1500 :)

I know it’s normal to get bløated and a little bit bigger during your period which leads to a temporary w3!ght gain… BUT WDYM I FEEL LIKE A HIPPO HEYDWHEJDNKAN??🦛

And I have to step on a sc4le in 2 FCKING DAYS !!! Imagine.. just imagine.. if the cøll@rbønes I’m seeing RIGHT NOW are just an illusion due to my důmb, deficient, m3nt4lly ill emotional sponge that serves me as a brain??

I think I going crazy, this is irrational thinking but I can help freaking out aaaaaaah

I wake up

No bloating

No sadness

And the light defining the h!ps bønes that’s start showing

What a great great day 🧚

DAY 15

I was never able to before but I need to look “healthy enough” for other not to ask me questions Pls leave me alone🧚

Okay so I gained a little bit but it’s mostly water w3!ght because my m3@sur3ments didn’t move

I’m so glad I took them this morning, helped me not freaking out lmao

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💋

Breakfast~ tofu, steamed vegetables, rice, salad, and fruit and coffee Lunch~ vegetable fritters, tempeh, beef, steamed vegetables, sambal and coffee. Dinner~ rice, mashed potatoes, broccoli, steamed vegetables with tofu, an omelet, fruits and coffee Snack~ 2 coffee and 1 stomach medicine

Total:~ 1700

Proud of meeee for not stuffing my plates and prioritising vegetables and proteins hehehe

Numbing my feeling by ⭐️ving and be obsessed with 3d actually works on me

I’m glad, I needed this

Since I r3l@ps3d I løst something like 5 cm around my w@!st and 3 around my biceps (my upper arms are my biggest insecurity) !!!

AAAAAAAH I’M SO HAPPY

Remember that you can gain a bit of w3!ght but compare it to your m3@sur3ments can help you not freaking out

DAY 7

At the time, it was for the attention of other, I was craving validation. I wanted to stop people jokes about the way I looked and getting some kind of revenge I guess (I wasn’t fat nor skinny they were just mean + bød¥ d¥smørph!@ didn’t help) Now it’s more like an obsession helping to stop overthinking and numbing my feelings. I don’t do that for people, actually I don’t want them to notice nor asking questions, the “looking” part is just additional motivation because it’s just not the main purpose this time And actually it’s working, I’m feeling less miserable than 2~3 weeks ago so happy 🧚✨

Little thing that can help (eventually?) First of all this is a daily reminder that one day that you consider bad will not mess everything up, don’t give up just for one day IT’S OKAY 💚💚

Tonight I indulged myself to have a snack, 3/4 of an apple and 15 vegetables crackers with a little bit of chickpeas left from my dinner.. right after I started to freak out, saying to myself that it was way too much and that I ruined everything I was genuinely scared and felling like a 🐖 I tried to take a step back after some time and decided to see how my bødy would react to this (NOT AT ALL) b!nge I just had. Like wtf girl 300 is not that bad when you only had no more and probably less than 1300 during the day CALM THE FCK DOWN And you know what? Turns out my bødy was just hungry haha :) I feel good, satisfied and not bloated at all So to anyone out there that is starting to feel really bad because you choose to 3@t something more than what you planned for the day it’s gonna be okay <33 + if you’re like me you probably over counting/estmating anyway haha It’s okay to have a little snack once in a while even if you already had a m3t@bday, maybe you were just hungry and this snack won’t make you bloated

except if you stressed it out to much or you let yourself have an B episode because of it… it will only make things worse

Hope it reassured the people who needed to hear it 🧚🐞