Idk What To Expect From The Sc@le And It’s K!ll!ng Me Right Now

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

DAY 26

Art.. that include painting, installation, performance and writing

Biology and science, especially micro and macro world🧑‍🔬

Sport, I’m currently in the gym but that’s only because I can’t afford swimming class and horse riding hahahahaaaa (give me money lmao)

Politics

Doing to much sudoku for my own good

Making fake scenarios in my head and talking to myself

Omg I have more than a 100 notes on 1 of my post !?? I feel kinda famous lmao💃💃

Thank you 🧚🌼🤍

Please take care, you are beautiful and you deserve the world 🐞

DAY 22

The typical “Are sure you gonna 3@t more”

Aaaaaand one that I found terrible “ If I push you, you’ll roll ”……. This one hurts pretty bad The funny part is that I wasn’t even f@t, I wasn’t sk!nny either, just normal lmao

I think my p3r!ød are coming, I feel stuff and my tummy is blo@ted and b!gger even tho the other part of my bødy aren’t

But I feel so miserable, this moment is really hard because, even though I know that it’s just the time of the month and it’s okay, it feels like I’m losing my progress and it’s very scary

I feel bad about what I @te.. Not because I feel stuff or hate my bødy but just cause I @te

I feel light and comfortable but just the fact that I took the liberty of having slightly more than what I was supposed to does not feel good at all

Trying to convince my dumb brain right now that I did not eat more than usual, just not on the same time but it not willing to understand apparently

Lmao i just thought about summer, I’m working in a restaurant next to the beach during this time and the good point is that I’m gonna move every day like crazy and dancing/partying every night but the bad side of it is that I will only survive on pizza and alcohol hahahaaaaa

I’m mean it’s the vibe and I shouldn’t be scared because, even with my poor summer d!3t, I always somehow loose w3!ght during this period. If it worked before why would it be different this time? But I’m still afraid.. I’m starting in 1 month and a half

I’m thinking one pizza a day + couples of drinks (and probably some extra snacks added) should be my maintenance actually 😭 I won’t have the time to count my daily intake anyway

Idk if I’ll be able to journal during this time because it gets really busy during the season so if I disappear, it’s probably because I’m doing fine, just busy. Also I won’t be able to w3!ght myself during this time but I will try to continue m3@sur!ng myself to track my progress or maintenance (and reassuring myself too let’s be honest here lmao)

Bonus points: my boss shows 3d patterns but don’t really link them to it. She always making small remarks and constantly comparing herself to me so I don’t know how I’ll be able to handle it this year.. I mean the cheque is good soooo yeah MONEY HAHAHA

I wake up and I feel sick, like I wanna thrøw⬆️

Well bødy dysmørph!@ is baaaaack💀 didn’t take her to long for sure..

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🦖

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 coffee Snack~ + 1 apple + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1/2 burrata pizza + 1 green tea

Total:~ 800

It was girls night✨ so happy because I was the one proposing sharing this pizza that we previously talked about and it was soooo good, I love burrata and it was so worth it and so filling in a good way Also if anyone is wondering, no, I didn’t f@st on purpose, I just didn’t had the time to 3@t a real meal today. I personally wouldn’t recommend the f@st!ng method because it just make you wanna 3@t more when you break it and it personally make me think about føød a little to much for my own good haha