Post M3t@bday Update I’m Not Feeling Bloated? I’ll Take It

My friend told me tonight that she could see my back and arms muscles!! I’m so happy like- That means that I’m not l00s!ng muscles mass (I might be in denial for this one haha) and it really helps me f!tt!ng my bødy dysmørph!@ right now Love her<3

Okay soooo, didn’t do it. I tried, really… I even ordered some føød but I don’t know if I’ll be able to eat it. I really wanted to achieve that but I feel so sick right now

Wanna know the funniest part? Even with this potential diner I wouldn’t have reached the 1800...

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

DAY 30 youhouhou

For my stats I won’t have my real CW right now BUT

Wa!st~ 71-72–> 65

@rms~ 30–> 26-27

CW~ 56–> 53

My reality check is that maybe reaching 60 around my wa!st in 2 months was a little bit to much lmao (I still have two weeks but I don’t now if it’s humanly possible)

And my @rms always been the most difficult part so for now I am happy that’s it’s not going up (BUT PLEASE GO THE FCKING DØWN OMG)

I’ll update the CW on Sunday :)

Overall I’ll feel happy and miserable at the same time so it’s kinda weird lol

Oh and my cøll@rbøn3s are visible now and my h!p bøn3s just starting

I’m again, going to a 3 days trip (two of them is the time of the travel lmao) and I feel like I’ll be able to walk out of this experience in cøntrøl and with a smile on my face

I won’t be able to w3!ght myself this week but so far, I’m surprised it’s not freaking me out

Body d¥sm0rph!a is actually the worst thing that I’ve been dealing with

Like what do you mean my all face and body change every minutes ???! Give me a break seriously..

It was supposed to be metabday yesterday but since I got my period last Tuesday and ate more than I was supposed to because feeling sick and energy empty I decided to skip it for this week

I’ll definitely do one next Sunday but right know I will just focus on not going over 1200

FØ0D DAIRY

Last 3 days

Add more coffee and u good ☕️☕️

Sat≈ 1800

Sun≈ 1200

M≈ 1800

Tuesday coming soon..

I wake up and I feel sick, like I wanna thrøw⬆️

Idk what to expect from the sc@le and it’s k!ll!ng me right now

I’m so scared