Body D¥sm0rph!a Is Actually The Worst Thing That I’ve Been Dealing With

My biggest flex right now is that I have a meat bread in my bag and I’m strong enough not to 3@t it

Make me feel in control weirdly

I wake up and I feel sick, like I wanna thrøw⬆️

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 💃

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Snack/Lunch~ 1 corn ice cream + 1 onigiri spicy chicken Diner~ the other half of a vegetarian pizza with tempeh on top + papaya + cucumber

Total:~ 1400 💫

Omg I so love the gym

Note to myself: never underestimate yoga - from a humbling experience

“OMG I eat sooo clean, make me feel soooo heathy” I say as my stomach rumble for the Idontremenber time

DAY 21

My nose (number one ALWAYS)

My freckles

My wrist

DAY 26

Art.. that include painting, installation, performance and writing

Biology and science, especially micro and macro world🧑‍🔬

Sport, I’m currently in the gym but that’s only because I can’t afford swimming class and horse riding hahahahaaaa (give me money lmao)

Politics

Doing to much sudoku for my own good

Making fake scenarios in my head and talking to myself

I usually don’t count the c@l that I burn but today is a special day because if I don’t do it the culpability will be even worse

I had a HUGE breakfast this morning because we went on hiking during the night (2am to 7am) for 5 entire hours and I felt really weak after

I burned more than 700 c@l during this hike and I’m currently using this number to calm myself down when I think about breakfast (I ate a lot of veggies, fruits and protein but still in an enormous quantity)

I’m not sure but I’m thinking about sk!pping at least one m3@l.. maybe both we’ll see

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 cheese bread + 2 roasted sausages Snack~ smoothies bowl + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 slice of cheese + 2 slice of bread + chicken broth + løwc@l lychee candy

Total:~ 1900

I ate a bit more today so I don’t really feel comfortable but I have to be honest with myself, I felt so weak today, couldn’t concentrate on anything and it’s probably because I don’t count my c@lør!3s in an accurate way so I end up more exhausted than I should be for the amount I’m over calculating everyday.. I shouldn’t complain about it because that means that it’s working and anyway, I did it myself to myself but I can’t talk to anyone about that, I don’t have anyone to talk to cause it’s not their f¥ck!ng business yk and I can handle it on my own. I just feel a teeny tiny bit down and it feels like here people understand at least because we are all in, comforting each other, which feel sad at the same time, thank you <33

You are all enough and beautiful!!