Omg I So Love The Gym

I think my p3r!ød are coming, I feel stuff and my tummy is blo@ted and b!gger even tho the other part of my bødy aren’t

But I feel so miserable, this moment is really hard because, even though I know that it’s just the time of the month and it’s okay, it feels like I’m losing my progress and it’s very scary

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🌱

Breakfast~ 2 ice Americano + Greek yogurt with corn and 1 egg + soya milk Snack~ spicy cheesy sausage + Egg salad wraps Lunch~ scrambled eggs with mushrooms sauce on focaccia and 1 chicken sausage + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ 1 gado-gado with kerupuk

Total:~ 1500-1600

My dream right now is to hit 50 by next week

OMG OMG OMG

-3 on the sc@l3 ??? In a week!! And I didn’t count the liquids that I drank this morning (~1L)

I know it’s probably a lot of water but I still feel so happy it’s going down, KEEP GOING DOWN (to myself)

Body d¥sm0rph!a is actually the worst thing that I’ve been dealing with

Like what do you mean my all face and body change every minutes ???! Give me a break seriously..

DAY 4

UGW: 40

I never been to this point, people started worrying before I could. I think that’s because I’m short and when I løs3w3!ght it’s rapidly noticeable. My lw was 41 or something (or little løw3r [?]) I don’t remember. It was 5 years ago. But I think my ugw is more to tell myself to not go løw3r.. I don’t want to worry people again and being forced into “r3cøv3ry” one more time. I don’t want to see my parents' teary eyes and watch my father delaying the moment he has to go to work just to make sure I 3@t something.. it really broke me at the time. At the time, I didn’t realise that it could impact other around me that way and I don’t want my friends and relatives to go through this once more just because I kinda f~ck3d up again. When I come back, if people ask me, I’ll just say “Did I? Idk.. I guess I’ve just been really active in the past month :)” which is actually the reality soooo half lies half true haha

But yeah that’s the reason my ugw isn’t løw3r sorry for this self centred story, thank you for reading it <3

DAY 18

I meeeeean I’m a cheese lover so yeah and I had some a week ago and I won’t stop myself 3@t!ng it but in moderation and anyway real cheese can be really expensive so I save money in the same time by controlling my portions

I actually have some leftover in the fridge that I didn’t touch for a week because I didn’t felt like it. I’m proud of that haha

Maybe one day I’ll be able to see myself the way other perceive me.

I’m not really active because I’m in a school trip. It feels like it’s also to test to see if I can r3str!ct myself while hanging out with my friends for three all day.. so far it’s working I said no to the morning snacks, just drank a coffee to stay in the vibe and didn’t even finish my plates (I hate throwing out food but I was feeling so full omg) proud of myself hehe Wish me luck for dinner, I’m setting the limit at 1800 since it’s also c@lør!3 deficit limit :)

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 👑

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ steamed vegetables with roasted chicken and creamy mushroom sauce + 1 ice Americano Snack~ smoothie bowl +passion fruit drink

Total:~ 1400