Forced To 3@t Only Fruits For Lunch?? Not Gonna Complain Haha

DAY 13

Really don’t know, maybe video and blogs.. ?

Making draft TikTok knowing d@mn well I’ll never post them is my th3r@py

I feel bad about what I @te.. Not because I feel stuff or hate my bødy but just cause I @te

I feel light and comfortable but just the fact that I took the liberty of having slightly more than what I was supposed to does not feel good at all

Trying to convince my dumb brain right now that I did not eat more than usual, just not on the same time but it not willing to understand apparently

My final goal is to still remain the sociable, always smiling friend 🌼 Faking 3@ting like I don’t fear it and laughing with the people I love None of them will notice and I’m so fine with that I don’t want to stop caring for them, they deserve the entire world I will not become the mean b!ch or the ghost of the friend group I didn’t r3l@pse because of them so they don’t have to suffer from the sh!t I put myself into I accepted the love they gave me and started trusting them without questioning their sincerity Having them entering my life is the best thing that ever happened to me They are the reason I didn’t r3l@pse sooner, always showering me with endless affection I really thought I was healed for good but I just can’t handle myself alone more than 1 MONTH APPARENTLY The funniest part is that they don’t even know that they were my biggest support I only need their presence and voice to feel better 💐 I’ll achieve this and step out being the best version of myself For me and for them🧚

Faking the spark that is fading ⭐️

My period make me say my deepest feelings lmao

Please stay safe everyone, at least try to not lose yourself to the point of losing and hurting the people you love.. they don’t deserve it <3

My friend told me tonight that she could see my back and arms muscles!! I’m so happy like- That means that I’m not l00s!ng muscles mass (I might be in denial for this one haha) and it really helps me f!tt!ng my bødy dysmørph!@ right now Love her<3

Tomorrow I’m gonna try a 24h f@st ! (I don’t count coffee in the equation)

And it start right now!

Basically not 3@t!ng anything until I come back home:)

My head is spinning, it feels like I’m dancing with the stars

i am soo back and so motivated

Easy one ingredient breakfast

You will need:

Water

Ice (optional)

Its healthy, hydrating, very quik and very cheap as well.

To spice things up, serve it with ice and/or in a pretty cup✨️

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 👒

Breakfast~ 3 coffee + chicken and tempeh with lots of veggies + 1 omelette + fruit platter + 1/2 small lamingtons cake + little sweet steamed bread Lunch~ 1 ice Americano Snack~ 2 banana mas + 1 ice Americano + 1 coffee Dinner~ rice and chicken curry with sambal and veggies + corn ice cream

Total:~ 1500

Lots of coffee today lmao