ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE🍁

DAY 23

Idk anymore haha, I sure act like I am on a daily basis but overall I don’t think I’m happy, more like grateful about the events in my life and my surroundings, friends and family

I started this journey to numb my feelings.. well I think it’s working pretty well lmao

Pleeeeeease

a nonchalant man is NOT for me

TF YOU MEAN I’M COLD AT 25 C° ?? HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE WHEN I COME BACK ?? -- It’s more around 20C° or less at home lol 💀--

My head is spinning, it feels like I’m dancing with the stars

Omg I so love the gym

DAY 7

At the time, it was for the attention of other, I was craving validation. I wanted to stop people jokes about the way I looked and getting some kind of revenge I guess (I wasn’t fat nor skinny they were just mean + bød¥ d¥smørph!@ didn’t help) Now it’s more like an obsession helping to stop overthinking and numbing my feelings. I don’t do that for people, actually I don’t want them to notice nor asking questions, the “looking” part is just additional motivation because it’s just not the main purpose this time And actually it’s working, I’m feeling less miserable than 2~3 weeks ago so happy 🧚✨

ON TODAY FØØD EPISODE 🫥

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ mie godok Snack~ fried manioc + 2 ice Americano Dinner~ shirataki noodles with chicken broth + watermelon and melon in lowc@l lychee smoothie + 1 matcha ice cream

Total:~ 1200

I’ve been with friends all day so obviously we had lunch and snack but I’m getting really good at r3str!ct!ng without anyone noticing so I’m proud of this day 🐞

My head not spinning, the earth is. Science

DAY 9

No cause I feel in control and helping nųmb!ñg my feelings

Still feel miserable tho, I’m well aware that’s a bad things and that I’m not good

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎒

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with cucumber, granola/chickpeas, rare tempeh and Greek yogurt Snack~ 1 chicken sausage + 15 vegetables crackers Lunch~ scrambled eggs on toast with melon and salad + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ egg protein bowl + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1600 (max)

I walked out of this day controlling my guilt over the 15 crackers and the beginning of a potential binge so I feel proud of myself