I Binged And Now I’m Crying In Bed

I wanted to take a piece of chocolate while with my family… and they told me that I am too fat to eat crap like that.

#bestspo lol

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What I ate yesterday~

(+ some dried seaweed I forgot to picture)

Snacks: green grapes, cherry tomatoes, salad, and soybeans; I weighed everything. (328cal)

Dinner: Beef with pasta and sauce, and a slice of chocolate cake (~700cal)

Snack: seaweed (~90cal)

Total: 1118cal

You are not hungry you just need water, drink

I don’t feel proud about throwing my grandma’s food in the trash…. And pretending I ate it….

But I feel like I feel guilty if I eat it and I’ll feel guilty if I don’t…. Might as well not eat something that is carb heavy and fat heavy and I didn’t feel good after eating it yesterday.

I don’t know if I’m over explaining just to make myself feel better about throwing away her cooking…

But I did it so anyway. Going to go watch TV.

Ate too much… but no binge and counted everything.

Breakfast: yogurt (122) with a banana (121) and some müsli hearts (116)

Snack: Some pastries (106)

Lunch: lentil (116) with chicken thighs (486)

- They were way too oily, I felt sick after eating it.

Dinner/Controlled binge: toast (140) with ham (43) and cheese (56) and a whole bag of chips (803)

- I feel disgusted with myself after this.

Total: 2109kcal 👎

Reminder for future me:

Binging will NOT make you happy and will NOT fix anything. Binging will bring so many tears and nausea and bloating and the food won't even taste good because you shove it down your throat too fast.

I feel like shit right now after yesterdays binge and you do NOT want to feel this way. You DON'T want to binge.

And remember that a binge won't ruin anything. You just have to push through afterward. Remember future me, remember how long I had to fast and how the lax cramps felt in addition to the guilt

YOU DO NOT WANT TO BINGE

~ I do NOT promote any ED, thanks~

This is MY account and it has NOTHING to do with you. If you're here, just because you want to report it, then fly away, thank you very much.

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High res = low cal

Low res = High-er cal

Crash Course! High Res vs. Low Res

idk if it's just me but it annoys me sooooo bad when I see people misusing low/high res... I think I'm just weird tho.

ANYWAY... for u guys who keep misusing them,

HIGH RES(TRICTION) = RESTRICTING A LOT (I.E NOT EATING MUCH/RESTRICTING YOUR CALORIES A TON)

LOW RES(TRICTION) = RESTRICTING A LITTLE (I.E EATING A BIT MORE/NOT RESTRICTING AS MUCH)

High res does not mean you're eating like 1200kcal... Low res does not mean you're eating 200kcal...

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