I Tried My Best For You.

announcement for the humans & nonhumans that follow me:

My blog will start to show more gender variance such as speaking about my non-binary Genderfluid identity, as well as my spirituality (don’t worry I don’t force), etc.

so if you find that you are not interested, feel free to unfollow. I will continue with my Yandere posts but I now will include things I’m interested in. So yeah! ❤️❤️

Trigger Warning

i laid down on the hard sidewalk, staring at the stars while tears filled up in my eyes.

I impulsively messaged a old fp & while he instantly responded with positivity like he always has.

Simultaneously, my current fp messaged me back, responding to my response of his story on insta. 

I don’t even know why I’m crying, sure, maybe it’s because my dad has cancer, my childhood friend/bully died the other day, my uncle is in the hospital after being found unconscious on the floor, we are being kicked out our apartment, and im here weeping over stupid shit like why doesn’t he love me back…

they don’t understand you, my beloved.

but i do.

i want to spend my life devoted to you.

i have him hooked to me.

he cannot escape my grasp.

hi, so my darling’s name is reaper, or well that’s what i call him. we’ve known each other for about two years.

my favorite thing about him is his laugh, god, his laugh is so dreamy. i miss him so much & i just got off the phone with him an hour ago!!!

- his bloodhound 💗

hi!

I have a question for people on Schizophrenia Spectrum (specifically Schizotypal Personality Disorder)..

does your family have to have schizophrenia or be on the schiz spectrum in order for you to be diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder?

like does it have to run in your family or can you be diagnosed with it without your family displaying any schizophrenic symptoms?

he broke my heart…

i just wanna escape this society & go far away into a beautiful meadow in a cottage to raise my son. I’ll teach him the ways of being kind to nature & respectful of the wild animals. I’ll show him that it’s okay to want to explore, as long as he is careful. I will remind him that even though the world can be an evil place, he will always have me to protect him and this home to be his sanctuary.

my heart aches when i remember you are no longer with us.

but i know you will be reincarnated & you will be mine.

i am sorry i wasn’t born any earlier.

my heart is yours.

i can’t stop thinking about him…

the space between us drives me crazy.

i can’t wait till he gets up here & i make him mine.

- meta