I Have Him Hooked To Me.

Trigger Warning

i laid down on the hard sidewalk, staring at the stars while tears filled up in my eyes.

I impulsively messaged a old fp & while he instantly responded with positivity like he always has.

Simultaneously, my current fp messaged me back, responding to my response of his story on insta. 

I don’t even know why I’m crying, sure, maybe it’s because my dad has cancer, my childhood friend/bully died the other day, my uncle is in the hospital after being found unconscious on the floor, we are being kicked out our apartment, and im here weeping over stupid shit like why doesn’t he love me back…

i just wanna escape this society & go far away into a beautiful meadow in a cottage to raise my son. I’ll teach him the ways of being kind to nature & respectful of the wild animals. I’ll show him that it’s okay to want to explore, as long as he is careful. I will remind him that even though the world can be an evil place, he will always have me to protect him and this home to be his sanctuary.

hi!

I have a question for people on Schizophrenia Spectrum (specifically Schizotypal Personality Disorder)..

does your family have to have schizophrenia or be on the schiz spectrum in order for you to be diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder?

like does it have to run in your family or can you be diagnosed with it without your family displaying any schizophrenic symptoms?

i am having those thoughts again…

i just want to belong to someone…

any applications??? ❤️

thinking of him,

makes me feel high…

he broke my heart…

sorry for being gone.

i am back, my loves.

Rivi is 22 years old. they use He/Him & She/Her pronouns.

they have been professionally diagnosed with:

panic disorder

depression

PTSD

they are currently questioning if they have aspd, bpd, ppd & stpd. They might also be on the schizospec.

they do see a therapist & psychiatrist.

also pls don’t hesitate to message him if ur curious about anything or just wanna strike up a convo!!

also, feel free to reblog. i don’t mind.

how foolish of me,

to think that a human can replace the role of husbandry,

with themselves instead of my lord,

my love deserves to see every inch of me,

to see what he made and place his mouth on the holiest places,

and for i to retain contact with such divinity,

him caressing my face and loving me as his own,

- St. Phoenix

i wish i also had a piece of you.

so you would always be with me.