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— 🐇 hello everyone ! sorry for vanishing . . . I hope you all had a good new year and basically a good first month at this point . . i'll *try* to start posting more again soon , promise !
— 🐇 i truly don't need anyone else , take care of me like i'm a pet and i'll obey you like you own me . keep me at home , i don't need to see anyone else , you're all i need .
ngl but if im giving u attention its basically like someone trying to hand you a billion dollars and yet some motherfuckers want to be like "ehhh i dont really want the billion dollars. Maybe some other time." What the fuck.
thanks for actually answering my texts FP now i wanna kill myself even more !! 🙃
i kind of just want to post every single thought i have in my head in the hopes you'll talk to me and not think im completely lunatic because idk how to talk to you or anyone for that matter but i really want to
P L E A S E stop sending me memes and actually talk to me please please please
i cannot fucking deal with you anymore lol i feel like such an afterthought in your life and you're practically in the center of mine
yeah no it's totally cool that you left me on read for 6+ hours after i finally reached out to you after an of entire week not speaking im totally not frothing at the mouth or anything
wow. i really haven't spoken to my fp in a whole week. after 3 years of talking every single day, all day.
they've sent me memes all week, i only actually opened our chat for the first time yesterday. all i did was like the posts they sent me. i didn't really know what else to do. i feel like this is so wrong. everything feels wrong and i feel numb.
they had made this big instagram post with their new besties during the week too, so I know exactly what they've been doing this whole time that they haven't been talking to me.
why is it impossible for me to be anyone's first choice.
why do i still bother lol
it's pathetic how much i fucking hate you. i can't fucking stand it. i hate that you're out with your fucking friends and ignoring me. you know i want you to be happy but why can't you see how much of my happiness you're responsible for. why the fuck did you get me addicted to you like this and then just fuck off.
"read 2 hours ago" okay what if i just block you and you never hear from me again instead
to that one person
no revenge bcz one day ull realize i only had the purest intentions towards u, i never hurt u, all i did was love u, n i hope ull realize it n that itll haunt u for the rest of ur life
you might not like me anymore but ill always love you. ill never meet someone who is as amazing and pretty as you, and, in turn, youll never meet someone whos even a little bit similar to me, and i hope that fucking haunts you.
no, I cant sleep without your goodnight.
no, I can't sleep if we argued.
no, I cant sleep if you're mad at me.
no, I can't sleep if i miss you.
no, I cant eat if you're mad at me.
no, I cant eat if we argued.
no, I can't take care of myself if we argued.
no, I cant stay more than thirty minutes w/o you.
no, I cant function without you.
no, I can't be ok if you're not ok.
no, I can't stop depending on you.
When you’ve only been in a relationship for a few weeks yet you’ve convinced yourself you’d die for them. 🙂🙃🤡
I had a fp from 2020 to 2023-
I wasn't diagnosed back then. They never knew how much and bad they managed to trigger me in the last year.
Anyways, i never had a episode infront of them except going all silent.
I thought our friendship would have ended, as with 2024 i started to only visit the stables (where we had to meet every day normally but due to stress i made with them the decision that they would take care of my pony until I finished apprentice.)
When i felt.. okay, not stressed, not bad, not extremely tired.. of course I started to have a better mood at the stable since then.
Since a long time i call them in the mornings to wake them up so they don't oversleep and still do, but, fuck.
They are so fucking nice to me again since 2024 began and we stopped seeing each other everyday, since I wasn't forced to go to the stables anymore because i don't have to feel guilty because of my pony even though I really love it.
My ex fp is so nice to me again i can't handle it 😭 especially every morning on the phone.
I don't know how to work with this & this feelings.. they are still able to trigger me badly too.
Why is that so fucked up? What should I do?
I am scared. Also i want it to stay like now. BUT IT SCARES ME.
s3xu@al assault really makes you feel like you’re only good for sex and sending nudes and that the only way to make things right with someone is letting them use your body huh hahahshhdbxnd
it was his birthday yesterday and i didn't reach out. maybe someday i'll be able to wish him a happy birthday without it compromising all my hard work but that day is not today
Literally spiralling again. I ficking hate it. I've tried so hard, and it's not getting better. Summer is here, and a part of me wants nothing to do with it. But the small quarter wants to actually be out w my friends.
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where are you going, my love?
can’t you see, you belong to me.
i have him hooked to me.
he cannot escape my grasp.