Nah Take The Pills Anyway, It’ll Be Funny (Or Give Them To A Fakeboy)

just know my place

and maybe i will <3 with your permission

Hmmm what if I said it’s more fun for me if you do it without my permission?

when the sub is the one that violates consent 😍

genuinely please come in my dms and goon with me and try to get me to develop new weird kinks, especially if its cringe.

I'M NOT A GIRL AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SAY THAT!!!

I’ve never really drank much… like at all, but recently I’ve been very interested in intox kink and gaining and alcohol is good for both of those.

To some extent the side of detrans kink I’ve been into is “getting worse”

I wanna become gross and fat and drunk and horny and trashy

Someone said this is self harm. It is. Hot right? Make me worse and worse and worse :)

I would like to talk to new people about intox kink, it’s something I’m sort of new to and want people to talk with about it.

At the moment I’m satisfied with being a girl I think btw :) that might change by the end of the night.

I’ve been more clearheaded lately. I’ve been entertaining the idea that perhaps, actually, I am just a guy and I should actually detrans, not for kink but actually. My reasoning is that I only transitioned in the first place out of a desire to become a different person sort of, so being a girl is just kind of me pretending to be someone else. Am I genuinely a pretty feminine person? Yeah I guess so. Does that mean I am this trans girl I’ve been for the past few years? Not necessarily. I find that if I fall into who I am naturally… I honestly do seem to just be kind of a male sex pest, sooo maybe that’s what I am. Maybe that’s all I need to be.

Do you see yourself as more dominant or submissive?

i’m more dominant lately <3

send me whatever cringe and gross stuff you want and ill jerk to it, preferrably women, to really drive home that I'm a straight man

Yo im horny wtf

thenn i will

totally not a little fantasy of mine to take advantage of someone, despite being a sub

I love that kind of thing, it is very welcome for me.

maybe you could get something semi androgynous, a haircut you can style either feminine or masculine depending on the day. i know you said you wanna commit to one permanently but for now you can just do that maybe?

Yeah so, I’m maybe a bit more clear headed about this than usual right now so I can give a very genuine answer: That’s probably a good idea, and realistically I probably am gender fluid. I think the reason I’m so hesitant to identify with gender fluidity is because I’d have to give up my “one of the good ones” sticker, which like I know is not good motivation but idk when someone tells me “You’re the first trans person I’ve seen that I think actually looks and sounds good” I’m kind of like “ew that’s transphobic but also an incredibly strong compliment i think???”

My concern about this is less about randos on the Internet and more about how some of my extended family sees me. It might complicate my life if I started openly saying “Yeah I’m fine with being a boy sometimes”

Having an androgynous haircut would probably be good! Something where I can pass as either cis male or cis female (which is probably achievable for me!)

That being said, and I’m at risk of hinting at my identity here a little bit, I’m going to in an indie film production later this year and I play a male character (it’s a sequel to something from before I transitioned) so really I just need to have a haircut that fits that role and then after we wrap I’ll probably get it styled in a feminine way.

Most likely I won’t do anything with my hair at all until we start filming in order to maximize the options for how my character’s hair can look because we haven’t 100% decided yet. My plan for after we’re done is actually basically the Gwenpool or Enid Sinclair haircut lol so, blonde, around shoulder length or a little shorter with the ends dyed pink or something similar.

That being said we might not finish filming this for quite a while, so actually I’m trapped in boyness whether I like it or not (which is part of why I’ve been so into this kink lately) but I was the one who decided we should just keep the character male anyway so whose fault is it really?

(He really wouldn’t have worked as a trans character at all)

My detrans note game is only at 22 notes and I already screwed myself over so much... for every two I'm not going to shave for a day. That's already 11 days of not shaving in addition to the 3 or 4 that I haven't done just up to this point. I started hrt really young so I don't get that much facial hair but I have distinctly noticed when going off hrt for a couple weeks at a time that I get new hair on my cheeks. At this rate I'm going to have a full beard. 😵‍💫

I've decided that March 30 counts as Day 1 of the start of the not shaving and not taking hrt goals.