Thenn I Will

ugh i need to have her or something like her

True to my promise in my detrans notes game I have bought boxers to replace my panties. As a bonus they’re all boring, manly grey and black. I’m still a little nervous to take the step of throwing all my panties out but I’ll do that soon.

9/10 Body

3/10 Face

That just makes it hotter because she’s probably insecure

Post-beach cardio

Absolutely asking for people to come in my dms or just decide for me exactly what kind of man I should be. I need guidance!!!

what if people asked me to decide what kind of man they should be and have them completely reformat their blog and personality to match, and I intentionally chose the most incongruent kind of masculinity to their current identity

You should be edged until you admit that you're a worthless girl like all the others. You squirm like a girl, you moan like a girl. I bet you look even more like one in panties, too. Just admit it. You want to be a big-titted bimbo that gets her stupid, soft cock milked until your legs shake.

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I don’t think I’m submissive enough for that. Ask me again 1 year from now when I’ve had bottom surgery.

I have now filled my pillbox for the week aaaand… no hrt!

I have a bunch of left over progesterone from when I used to take progesterone and I’m curious if that would turn me back into a girl mentally.

Maybe that sounds crazy but I remember it making me feel a lot more feminine back when I took it.

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

alt bimbofication is definitely a thing, i think. just might be hard for now because of your more masculine appearance

I wouldn’t say I have a masculine appearance, just short hair, and even then it’s not that short anymore. I can still pass as a girl. What made you think I had a “more masculine appearance” did I say that?

If anything I can pull off either rn

this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy

Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.

Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.

I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.

i did ur mom last night

This was kind of a lie ig lol

I’m definitely a girl right now and I am actively sabotaging any possible boyification.

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.