Absolutely Asking For People To Come In My Dms Or Just Decide For Me Exactly What Kind Of Man I Should

I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…

Tomorrow I’m hooking up with a fakeboy irl and we’re going to start working towards fixing each other <3

Maybe might take a different angle with this stuff and try to aggressively feminize myself and see if that works. Bimbofication stuff sounds helpful, I’m just hesitant because I’m not a fan of the bimbo aesthetic. I’d rather be more of an egirl/emo type that just also happens to be dumb as rocks and extremely feminine.

Someone help me 🥺

I love when I enter a space full of nominally supportive, also mentally ill people, but I’m too mentally ill for even them and they’re clearly uncomfortable being around me.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

genuinely please come in my dms and goon with me and try to get me to develop new weird kinks, especially if its cringe.

I think the reason being a guy appeals to me is that when I have sexual fantasies I always picture myself in a male role partnered with a cis woman and i dont have fun any other way. In order to get in a situation like that long term I would have to be a guy, and I’m so confused about my identity just in general that that sounds extremely appealing…

something I'm absolutely fucking weak for is when dudes gain weight and in the process manage to look like 10 or 15 years older, like unnnnnnnghnf perfection, not that I don't love actual daddies but like there's an incredible allure to a guy who's pursuit of pleasure completely obliterated any chance he had of looking young and pretty🤤🤤