Genuinely Please Come In My Dms And Goon With Me And Try To Get Me To Develop New Weird Kinks, Especially

Fakegirl mtftm Detrans Notes Game

Detransitioning has become more real than kink for me over time and I need a little push to commit to it

Every 2 - One day without shaving my face (starting April 1)

Currently (165 Notes) Can shave again June 22

Every 10 - One week without hrt (starting March 30)

Currently (165 Notes) Can take hrt again July 20

Every 25 - I'll buy a distinctly masculine article of clothing

25 - throw out all my panties and buy boxers

Every 50 - Pick up a new, hypermasculine interest (be sure to suggest some!)

50 - start using a deeper voice

75 - Present as male in public sometimes

80 - I'll do everything I can to unlearn my voice training permanently

90 - Start actively rejecting anything girly or feminine. Try to get myself disgusted by the idea of being associated with girly stuff.

100 - Casually present as male publicly all the time (except when with close friends or family)

100 - My hair is already fairly short but I'll get it cut in a more masculine style

100 - Actively train myself to think more like a horny dumb bro

110 - No show to my next hair removal appointment (to prep for bottom surgery)

120 - Start working out (to get buff)

125 - Change my identity and pronouns to male and he/him on all my private accounts that my friends and family don't see

125 - completely change my wardrobe

150 - I'll change my pronouns to he/him on all my social medias

175 - Throw out all my hrt and never refill it

200 - Maintain a beard for the rest of my life

200 - Start taking testosterone supplements

200 - Cancel my bottom surgery entirely

300 - Start applying for jobs as a guy

500 - I'll come out to everyone I know as detransitioning and be a boy forever

rawr, x3, pounces on you, yeah yeah that’s all well and good but where’s the passion? where’s the artistry? what aspect holds a mirror up to the audience and makes them confront their own biases and the blood on their own hands? I once killed a man in Reno just to get in the headspace to write my hit outlaw country-western song “I Killed a Man in Reno” but I’m past that phase. Now I hope to enter the hot space of 21st Century pre-apocalyptic furry-core laconicism. What does “rawr” mean? What does it mean to ME? This is my nirvana, this is my hero’s journey, this is my arc of the convenient. How are we supposed to perceive the voice of reason when my inner-dialogue kicked the bucket long before I got around to it? I killed a man in Reno.

Just realized I refilled my pill organizer for the week and it didn’t even occur to me to put hrt in there. I’m used to being off of it now, it didn’t even register as an option. I have a huge stockpile of spiro and estradiol pills piling up.

Huge points to anyone willing to try to convince me to poor water in those pill bottles and ruin them <3

Seriously come in my dms and manipulate me into doing that pleeeease. that sounds so hot.

you just made it sound like that i guess 😭

Okay well I also said I’m intersex lol 😭

Even when I go off hrt for two months I don’t think there’s a remarkably high amount of t in my system.

All I’ve noticed from going off hrt for a long time is

1. Easier to get erections

2. I’ve noticed like two (2) new strands of facial hair on my cheek.

I do kinda look like a boy but that’s just because I’ve been wearing a lot of t-shirts and hoodies and that combined with the short hair comes across as boy coded.

Also I turn 25 soon and if I try to look like a guy I look maybe 20 at the absolute oldest. I actually put a picture of me right before starting hrt (when I was 19) and a picture of me a couple months ago (at 24) and I look younger in the picture from 2025, which just kind of demonstrates that at worst I look like a boy, not a man.

erm so I may have impulsively shaved my face which I know I said I wouldn’t do but to be perfectly honest having facial hair is just not practical for me. I can’t openly be detrans rn I’m not ready for that and I don’t know if I ever will be. I’ll keep skipping my hrt for the foreseeable future but I just have to shave.

Okie sorry for going crazy, back to horny times

Gonna explore my potential identity as a boy through kink <3

True to the promise of my notes game I just bought TEN pairs of boxers and I will be throwing out my useless panties. It's ridiculous I was wearing panties in the first place, obviously they didn't fit. One of the things on the list is that every 50 notes I will pick up a new masculine interest. I am autistic so I'm someone who has a lot of intense, specific hobbies and interests. Some of them are already somewhat masculine, but I engage in them in somewhat feminine ways. For example I follow sports pretty closely and I like watching videos about history. Each time I hit 50 notes I will elevate one of those more male interests and I will try to engage with it in a more man-brained way. Maybe eventually I will pick up entirely new interests too, but they have to be something that I would even find interesting in the first place.

Also at this point I will not be able to shave for most of April (and counting) I intend to start the count of days I can't shave on April 1, just because it'll be easier to keep track of if it starts on the first of a month. I actually at this point have not shaved in 4 or 5 days so I'm undecided if I will shave on March 31 to reset it or not. I am somewhat leaning towards doing that but we'll see.

One last thing, I have edited the list a bit since I initially posted it. I will never change goals that have already been reached and I'll try not to move around goals I already listed unless I feel like they're in an order that is unnatural or doesn't make sense. For the most part I will only be adding new things to the list.

I intend to adhere to the list entirely and I will be posting proof that I followed through. Be sure to hold me accountable. Another thing, if I reach the point where I'm allowed to shave again, the notes game ends.

I should be honest I’m starting to question how realistic it is for me to follow through on my detrans notes game, at least at the moment. I’m getting some doubts about all this. Knowing how this has gone for me in the past those doubts will probably go away again at some point but I definitely am not willing to change my pronouns to he/him on my public socials at the moment so that probably says something about how I feel about this. Regarding the no shaving one… I would feel bad not following through on that when so many people wanted me to. I will either keep not shaving until it becomes impractical and I need to shave, or I will escape my delusions of femininity and actually never shave again idk, we’ll see.

new development!!!

I tried thinking of myself as a “femboy” and… something clicked. I *liked* it. Not just in a kinky way that made me feel dysphoric in a horny way, no. It made me feel *good* about myself. Like, maybe I AM a femboy.

what's your favorite thing about being off HRT?

The main reason I’m off hrt is because of my breeding kink. I want to get someone pregnant 😘

Similarly I want to be able to get massive erections.

To take it a bit further I like the idea of no longer being able to pass as a girl because of the effects of testosterone, but that hasn’t really happened yet.