Just Realized I Refilled My Pill Organizer For The Week And It Didn’t Even Occur To Me To Put Hrt In

True to the promise of my notes game I just bought TEN pairs of boxers and I will be throwing out my useless panties. It's ridiculous I was wearing panties in the first place, obviously they didn't fit. One of the things on the list is that every 50 notes I will pick up a new masculine interest. I am autistic so I'm someone who has a lot of intense, specific hobbies and interests. Some of them are already somewhat masculine, but I engage in them in somewhat feminine ways. For example I follow sports pretty closely and I like watching videos about history. Each time I hit 50 notes I will elevate one of those more male interests and I will try to engage with it in a more man-brained way. Maybe eventually I will pick up entirely new interests too, but they have to be something that I would even find interesting in the first place.

Also at this point I will not be able to shave for most of April (and counting) I intend to start the count of days I can't shave on April 1, just because it'll be easier to keep track of if it starts on the first of a month. I actually at this point have not shaved in 4 or 5 days so I'm undecided if I will shave on March 31 to reset it or not. I am somewhat leaning towards doing that but we'll see.

One last thing, I have edited the list a bit since I initially posted it. I will never change goals that have already been reached and I'll try not to move around goals I already listed unless I feel like they're in an order that is unnatural or doesn't make sense. For the most part I will only be adding new things to the list.

I intend to adhere to the list entirely and I will be posting proof that I followed through. Be sure to hold me accountable. Another thing, if I reach the point where I'm allowed to shave again, the notes game ends.

Okay doubts over for now!!! I’m back to wanting to be a cis man. I went out in public today as a guy, even wearing a binder. I still sounded like a girl, unlearning voice training is harder than you’d think when you’ve sounded like a cis girl for years.

I feel like I’m really coming across as trans masc here and maybe that’s basically what I am at this point. I’m guessing most people that see me in public think I’m trans masc. My facial features are soft and feminine, I’m relatively short, if I’m not wearing a binder (which most of the time I’m not) I have noticeable breasts, my voice does not sound like a cis man at all, the small amount of facial hair I have looks like it just started growing.

I think the assumption for anyone would have to be either that I’m afab trans masc or maybe alternatively that I’m significantly younger than I am. I think add to that I’ve always been kinda afab-coded (I tone it down for this blog because of the nature of it) and trying to sell people on the idea that I’m a cis guy is probably not easy.

I would say if anything at this point I look like I haven’t aged since I started taking hrt and if anything look even younger than that because of the effects of estrogen, so even if I told someone I’m a cis guy they’d probably guess I’m like 18 or 19 (I’m about to turn 25)

This isn’t really a detrans kink post as much as it’s just a detrans post, but it’s interesting. I think pulling the curtains back on the kink stuff… a lot of this isn’t kink for me. Part of me still very much so wants to be a girl, and to be perfectly honest my personality and mannerisms and way of speaking are so naturally feminine that I would have to fundamentally change who I am as a person at my core to meet the detrans goals I have in mind. That’s not easy at all, but still it’s exciting to try and I want to see how far I can go with it.

Because of the nature of my personality my natural state is probably being female, I guess in the back of my head I’m pretty sure that if I detransition I’ll retransition eventually. That’s why I’m so tempted to ruin every chance I have at being a girl, going off hrt for a while and trying to change my personality and all that.

We’ll see how it goes :)

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.

What did you do to being called a creep?

When I was a girl I understood what it was like to be pursued by weirdos, and honestly I was kinda into it. Now I've sorta become like a lot of those guys that used to be after me. I want a girl to show affection to, and I'm desperate. I would never cross a line, but I'm definitely a pathetic horny simp sometimes.

Cute, pretty, quirky girl cursed to get an erection when she thinks about someone pressuring her to become a dirty gross man

especially if it's cringe loser fandom stuff for pathetic gooners. If you can't tell from the pic I also like censored porn (and I like egirls)

I've cum to this like 5 times now.

Real men deserve worship

chat am i a boy?

Hello!

I like dms :) i'm a loser fake girl (a normal boy) potentially detransitioning

estrogen is poisoning you

omg so true