Either Way, Itd Be Hot To Be A Pretty Girl Getting Her Cock Milked Right? It Sounds Hot

Maybe might take a different angle with this stuff and try to aggressively feminize myself and see if that works. Bimbofication stuff sounds helpful, I’m just hesitant because I’m not a fan of the bimbo aesthetic. I’d rather be more of an egirl/emo type that just also happens to be dumb as rocks and extremely feminine.

Someone help me 🥺

for me a detrans kink isn’t about taking away his identity, it’s about letting him play with every messy piece of it. When he’s begging me to degrade him, he’s really begging me to accept every part of him, even the parts he’s terrified of.

He’s always been so guarded about gender, but in these moments, he’s wide open. When he’s desperate, humiliated, pleading to be my girl again, it’s not weakness, it’s bravery. Watching him break his own rules for pleasure makes me want to ruin him and protect him all at once.

ANYONE WHO CALLS ME MALE TODAY, OR EVEN AMAB, I WILL REMOVE YOUR SKIN ONE SQUARE CENTIMETER AT A TIME.

I AM NOT LIKE YOU.

I AM BETTER.

I AM A REAL GIRL.

I AM A GOD.

For any ftm chicks that wanna see my mtf man penis: my dms are open. 😘

I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P

I’ve been going through discord messages and my posts and such and I think detrans kink has been less appealing to me for several weeks now, pretty much all of May. I’m still getting off to it yeah, but at some point I realized how unhealthy it was for me, then I got really turned on by how unhealthy it was for me, and then I just started getting kinda sick of it.

I think I want to try to go back to one of my favorite kink fixations which was objectification through worship, which I was really into in 2022. Like yeah I’m dominant and alluring and powerful, but people only view that through the lens of me being porn, which makes it also kind of submissive. I miss those days. I want to go back to those days. I don’t even know if there’s a word for it.

everyone likes you better as a man

realistically this is probably not the case, a lot of people in my life prefer me as a girl, which is the main reason it’s tough for me to commit to detrans

What's the most depraved thing you've done for the sake of getting off?

A lot of my answers to this would be some variation of pretending to be someone I’m not. My biggest kink is transformation and that has led to me doing some catfishing or giving falsehoods about my identity.

I think specifically the thing I feel most guilty about is when I was doing some detrans rp and I sent a pic of my face and they *recognized me* (I know I keep alluding to my micro-celebrity but I’m really not that famous, still, sometimes people know who I am) and I, in my horny daze, decided it would be super hot if I pretended to be some random person catfishing as myself. This really hurt the person I had been talking to as they had previously seen me as kind of a role model and they got really upset and threatened to blackmail me. All that sent me into a deep depression and resulted in me not uploading any videos for months.

Not really a sexy answer, more of a sad one, but this blog is nothing if not honest.

random idea:

getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…

oh wait… that already happend 😵‍💫💕

I know you spent so much time acquiring your perfect girl voice uwu but that will only make your detransition hotter.

Jerk off to dirty sweaty porn while imagining forcing yourself upon the women you love and let out the manliest grunt when cumming. Make it extra deep.

Take a mental snapshot of this moment. Redo it again every 3 hours. Replay this feeling in your head 24/7. If you managed to brainwash yourself into believing you were female, you can reprogram yourself into a male. ♥️