What's The Most Depraved Thing You've Done For The Sake Of Getting Off?

me: *becomes an alcoholic but in a cute and sexy way*

I have reached another milestone in my detrans notes game! Because I hit 75 Notes I now have to go out in public as a guy sometimes. I had a specific meaning for this in mind but it was a little wordy to put in the notes game. Basically anytime I go somewhere alone, without friends or family, running an errand or just getting out of the house, I will put on a deep voice and let everyone see my short hair. I'll use the men's restroom and no one will think I was ever a girl.

13, 15, 17?

I’ll do the two less interesting ones first.

13 was something like “at what size can you not fit into panties” and idk I don’t think it has anything to do with my genitals, just the width of my hips. I can always just tuck.

17 was something like “what was the last girl you rated out of 10” uhhh i did that in literally my last reblog.

15 is the interesting one: How did girls in my school perceive me? Basically eccentric, autistic, sexually ambiguous theater kid. I wasn’t actually in theater anymore by the time I got to high school because I did pre-recorded productions so I guess technically i was a film kid? But same vibes. I’m autistic but like the type of autistic where I’m not just sociable but like, i dunno, people are kind of drawn to me. I’m good at working a crowd and networking and all that stuff but also I was seen as kind of weird because I was probably a little *too* charismatic sometimes. Also I had pretty bad mental health issues and everyone knew that so I think if anything a lot of people just felt sorry for me. I did have a girlfriend late in high school. I broke up with her because I figured I was asexual. Chat do you think I’m asexual? Oh also as I have mentioned before I was kind of like, half out of the closet that I was trans and that I’m intersex. I was pretty androgynous and towards the start of high school I was pretty openly a girl and had long hair and stuff but I think a lot of people still thought I was a boy, then roughly age 15-19 I tried way too hard to be male and it probably didn’t work. My voice has never been unambiguously male, and I don’t sound like a guy at all nowadays, but idk how people saw it back then. Probably a lot of people assumed i was gay. I wasn’t. Or at least not mlm, maybe I’m technically a lesbian.

First of all I LOVE DMs please feel free to dm me (18+ obviously) I love chatting especially about kinky stuff.

You can call me Echo. My "dead"name is a little too unique to share here because I think people would gather my identity. I am very strongly into transformation and especially detransitioning.

My flavor of detrans specifically is becoming a dominant porn addicted bro type. I especially have a fantasy of a girl (especially a yandere type) attaching herself to me romantically and insisting I become a dominant man for her (bonus if "she" is a fakeboy)

The detrans stuff is shockingly real for me, and I actually will commit to my notes game 100%, but any transphobia and (most of the) misogyny is just play (I think?)

I am very mentally ill, autism, schizoaffective, BPD, so just take it as me being a lil quirky :)

again feel free to dm!!

random idea:

getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…

oh wait… that already happend 😵‍💫💕

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

Looking for a crazy yandere girlfriend that wants to obssess over me and invade my personal life and really just consume me whole who is also into/okay with mtftm detrans kink. Ideally she's obsessed with me but only wants me to be a masculine man so she makes me conform to male gender roles. Maybe kind of weird and specific but it's what I need in my life. dm me if you're a bpd girlie that needs a new favorite man.

My asks are very open right now, I want to hear every question you have about my gender and how I feel about this kink and why I’m a guy and such. Please ask me questions!!!

For the ask game- 1 🤭

Finally getting around to answering these~

How big is my penis? I think many years ago before hrt I measured it and it was 8 inches but I feel like that can’t possibly be true, I probably measured it wrong. I will say, every time I have sex with someone and they see it the reaction is always “oh my god that’s huge!” but idk I don’t really buy it. It’s definitely very thick, but long? It’s maybe average.

ooooor maybe i’m so porn brained from seeing a million porn penises that I have an unrealistic idea of what a normal size is.

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.