13, 15, 17?

goth girl tiddies 🤤

Been hearing from a lot of people that they find my genuine public exploration of my gender identity really hot because I’m clearly also still jacking off to it and because clearly this is a very real thing for me. Honestly it’s a lot of internalized transphobia. I want to be a cis girl not a trans girl, and if I can’t I might as well just be a cis guy.

I think maybe I should shave my head again. Trap myself in this for longer.

The Fan Experience

Fakegirl Detrans Kink Transformation Story

Warnings: Sexual Content, MTFTM Detrans, Transformation, Identity Death, Misoygyny

You’re realllly pretty, and you know it. Everyone else knows it too. It’s not easy to be adored my thousands of viewers every time you go live, but you manage. Your winged eyeliner, all that blush, a little heart under your eye, you’re an egirl stereotype, but it looks great on you. You’re cute, you’re beautiful, you’re everyone’s girl.

You stare down the camera and catch a glance of yourself on stream. Totally on point, you’re nailing it today. Something deep inside you stirs… you’re *really* hot. To other people obviously. A little confidence never hurt anybody.

It feels good to feel this good about yourself. 7 years ago you were a boy, as silly as that sounds. That’s private information, only your closest friends explicitly know you’re trans, but of course it’s an open secret among your viewers. It’s hard to keep something like that toootally under wraps, ya know?

You just want to feel pretty, so you can stare at yourself, so other people can stare at you, and that’s what you’re doing.

Something is wrong.

You’re really only half aware of it. Here and there the you in your stream does something *slightly* different. She makes a different gesture, she uses slightly different verbiage, she’s not quite you.

She’s hot.

You’ve always been aware of it of course, how pretty you are. People tell you all the time. This is different. This is arousal. Attraction to a distinct person, to the you on the stream.

You hardly notice when your camera turns off.

You feel much more alone now, clearly in private, and extremely aroused, so you do the most logical thing. You whip it out and start jacking off. All your pretty makeup has been absorbed into your skin, making your face greasy and rough. Your hair starts falls out in clumps, leaving you with short, balding hair.

You don’t care, you’re focused on your favorite streamer.

Your body rapidly becomes completely unrecognizable, as you become an anonymous viewer instead of the main event. You’re misshapen and asymmetrical. Decidedly not pretty. Decidedly not a girl. Just an unremarkable man jacking off to a pretty girl.

You’re too horny to notice, in a deep haze of indifference, but god she’s so hot, and you’re so close, you just need her to say your name. You donate the most you can afford, $20, and she mentions you! It’s enough to feel every cell in your body explode in ecstasy as you coat her pixel perfect face in ropes of cum.

Something clicks.

She’s not even your favorite. There’s chicks on here way hotter than her.

She’s not really that bangable, and you know it.

How do you feel about being forcefemmed into giving up any silly little notions of ever making it as a man?

honestly rn i’m begging for someone to forcefem me. Maybe that sounds crazy based on my blog but like genuinely if I had a 1 on 1 dynamic with someone very interested in making me in particular into a very feminine girl I’d be all over it. Please please please someone come into my dms and offer to turn me into a girly girl.

Let’s be honest chat, I’m pretty girly.

What if this becomes a force fem blog or even a bimbofication blog lol

Reinforce my femininity 🥺

Whats the main thing keeping you from throwing it all away and what might help push you over that edge?

Well especially the past few days I really just feel like I want to totally go back to being a girl. aaand yet… I keep getting dragged back into this kink…

It almost feels like it isn’t a choice anymore. Like I’m destined to become male. The main thing stopping me is the expectations of the people in my life. Socially detransitioning would be the hard part, admitting that I want to be a guy and all, especially to people who are gonna say “I told you so”.

I’m not exactly sure what would allow me to go through with it, I think I would to be mentally conditioned to feel significantly more comfortable being male, or even to get uncomfortable being associated with anything feminine. This is why I say I think dedicated hypnosis might help.

me: Well at least my misogyny is just a silly kink, I do actually respect women after all

the truth: I spend all day everyday gooning to objectified pregnant women, feet, egirls, and a lot of SFW pics of women who probably had no idea their pictures would be used as jackoff material… and I can’t stop myself.

Whats the most stalkery shit you secretly got off on during your time as a content creator

Well it was other people stalking me, and people were definitely very creepy towards me, even recently someone from back then found my insta and slid in my dms and tried to dom me. I told him I don’t really like guys but he insisted. There was a LOT of that in 2022.

I haven't shaved in over a week at this point. There still isn't really that much facial hair. I started hrt young, and actually the reason I was so eager to start hrt when i did was because of the slight facial hair growth I started getting. Since I stopped taking hrt I have noticed a bit of new hair growth on my left cheek but strangely none on my right cheek yet. Something I've started to wonder (and I wonder this every time I've tried to grow my facial hair out) is whether it's even a good idea to do this. It looks kinda bad and scraggly and it just makes me less confident when I go out. It's barely noticeable from a distance but up close it makes me look kinda bad. That being said I did promise in my notes game that I wouldn't shave so for now I won't :)

I have reached another milestone in my detrans notes game! Because I hit 75 Notes I now have to go out in public as a guy sometimes. I had a specific meaning for this in mind but it was a little wordy to put in the notes game. Basically anytime I go somewhere alone, without friends or family, running an errand or just getting out of the house, I will put on a deep voice and let everyone see my short hair. I'll use the men's restroom and no one will think I was ever a girl.