Whats The Most Stalkery Shit You Secretly Got Off On During Your Time As A Content Creator

this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy

Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.

Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.

I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.

detrans is so hot

literally I can't think of anything hotter than seeing a cute girl(male lol) turn back into a hot man. The t pumping through him changing everything on his body, making it pointless to ever try and go back. It's so fucking sexy. Like give yourself up for your penis. It's actually great for you lmao

I might delete this account and replace this blog with a similar new one because I made the mistake of making this my main blog lol

I've cum to this like 5 times now.

Real men deserve worship

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.

Also, how does it feels to wear boxers after so long being used to panties? Do you feel your body is thanking you?

They’re a lot more comfortable actually! I shouldn’t be surprised, they’re meant for my anatomy.

When you honestly can’t tell what’s kink thoughts/beliefs and what’s your real thoughts/beliefs anymore…guess it means the brainwashing/conditioning is working? 😅 still don’t know if that’s good or bad…

I should be honest I’m starting to question how realistic it is for me to follow through on my detrans notes game, at least at the moment. I’m getting some doubts about all this. Knowing how this has gone for me in the past those doubts will probably go away again at some point but I definitely am not willing to change my pronouns to he/him on my public socials at the moment so that probably says something about how I feel about this. Regarding the no shaving one… I would feel bad not following through on that when so many people wanted me to. I will either keep not shaving until it becomes impractical and I need to shave, or I will escape my delusions of femininity and actually never shave again idk, we’ll see.

Did you grow any breasts/ass?

I certainly did. I bought a binder to take care of that.