Getting Brainwashed So Your Deadname Real Name Becomes A Trigger That Turns You On…

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

For any ftm chicks that wanna see my mtf man penis: my dms are open. 😘

how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?

At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.

I’m sorry for my strange behavior.

For anyone wondering, I am not okay.

My problems are a lot to unpack and I know I’m supposed to just be horny on here.

For anyone wondering the nature of my problems does actually indicate that maybe detrans is actually an option.

I feel like I don’t really have an actual personality or identity, I just always try to become someone else.

It’s entirely possible that’s the only reason I wanted to be a girl in the first place. I just wanted to be someone else.

rn I’m in between identities. I feel like I want to craft a definitive, ideal, permanent self to strive towards. I don’t know what the nature of this self should be. Even then I’m still just creating a character and filling a role, which I have done in the past. All I know how to do is play a character. I have no idea how to be my own person.

Should I actually be a guy maybe? I mean that would be easier. I think I do genuinely prefer being a girl but that isn’t easy. i don’t knowwwww ahhhhhh!!!

This whole thing is making me doubt even my name, which I changed 4 years ago. I only did that to try to become someone else. idk if that’s healthy. i dunno.

I can only think of this in the context of creating a new fictional character to become, I have no idea how to just be my own person.

I need help.

Slowly coming to understand that I'm a man after all. I wanted to be a girl when I was so young, so I became one, but something shifted in my head at some point. Something changed in me. Maybe it was my porn addiction worsening, realizing that I really only like girls and want to cum inside them, that made me start thinking like a guy. That sexual frustration has driven me. Over the past couple years I've become more and more male, and my detrans kink has become more and more of a detrans reality. It's still very sexually fueled. I want to become a man so I can cum deep inside hot cis women. I change more and more every week, and my dms are open for anyone that wants to encourage me.

What's the most depraved thing you've done for the sake of getting off?

A lot of my answers to this would be some variation of pretending to be someone I’m not. My biggest kink is transformation and that has led to me doing some catfishing or giving falsehoods about my identity.

I think specifically the thing I feel most guilty about is when I was doing some detrans rp and I sent a pic of my face and they *recognized me* (I know I keep alluding to my micro-celebrity but I’m really not that famous, still, sometimes people know who I am) and I, in my horny daze, decided it would be super hot if I pretended to be some random person catfishing as myself. This really hurt the person I had been talking to as they had previously seen me as kind of a role model and they got really upset and threatened to blackmail me. All that sent me into a deep depression and resulted in me not uploading any videos for months.

Not really a sexy answer, more of a sad one, but this blog is nothing if not honest.

Even when I was a girl this was the kind of girl I tried to be lol

estrogen is poisoning you

omg so true

9/10 Body

3/10 Face

That just makes it hotter because she’s probably insecure

Post-beach cardio

For the ask game- 1 🤭

Finally getting around to answering these~

How big is my penis? I think many years ago before hrt I measured it and it was 8 inches but I feel like that can’t possibly be true, I probably measured it wrong. I will say, every time I have sex with someone and they see it the reaction is always “oh my god that’s huge!” but idk I don’t really buy it. It’s definitely very thick, but long? It’s maybe average.

ooooor maybe i’m so porn brained from seeing a million porn penises that I have an unrealistic idea of what a normal size is.