I’m sorry for my strange behavior.
For anyone wondering, I am not okay.
My problems are a lot to unpack and I know I’m supposed to just be horny on here.
For anyone wondering the nature of my problems does actually indicate that maybe detrans is actually an option.
I feel like I don’t really have an actual personality or identity, I just always try to become someone else.
It’s entirely possible that’s the only reason I wanted to be a girl in the first place. I just wanted to be someone else.
rn I’m in between identities. I feel like I want to craft a definitive, ideal, permanent self to strive towards. I don’t know what the nature of this self should be. Even then I’m still just creating a character and filling a role, which I have done in the past. All I know how to do is play a character. I have no idea how to be my own person.
Should I actually be a guy maybe? I mean that would be easier. I think I do genuinely prefer being a girl but that isn’t easy. i don’t knowwwww ahhhhhh!!!
This whole thing is making me doubt even my name, which I changed 4 years ago. I only did that to try to become someone else. idk if that’s healthy. i dunno.
I can only think of this in the context of creating a new fictional character to become, I have no idea how to just be my own person.
I need help.
This was kind of a lie ig lol
I’m definitely a girl right now and I am actively sabotaging any possible boyification.
I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?
At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.
When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”
When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.
It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.
So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.
Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot
being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.
I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.
First of all I LOVE dms please dm me!!! Asks are cool too!!!
Also I’m poly and actively looking for new online/long distance partners!! (especially former ftm girls with a breeding kink but anyone is welcome) Come in dms and see if we click!!! 😳
Bio:
Hi I’m Echo, my real name is Elliot, I’m 24 years old, I use he/they but umm i’m more comfortable with he/him 😣
I’m a femboy and a boymoder, and a total twink (but a straight one I swear!!!) and I really identify specifically with striving for femininity and having it denied to me, forcing me to retreat back in my baggy hoodies :3
I’m intersex but I have a massive dick so what am I really?
Oh I used to be a pretty trans girl. That feels like ages ago though… I could never really be a girl now, that’s just not really my place.
I’m a total porn addict and kind of a creep lol I’m so obsessed with hot girls. Kind of curious about guys too but I’d need someone to guide me into that.
Kinks: Hypnosis, Transformation, Identity Changes, Orientation Play, Breeding, Detrans <3, Being forced into certain roles, Blackmail, Toxic Relationships
Limits: Illegal Stuff Obvs, besides that just don’t kill me i guess? oh but snuff is actually kinda hot… well that would be illegal though wouldn’t it? Um, yeah totally don’t kill me :3
This is the part where I’m supposed to say this is all kink and play and i’m not a boymoder i’m just a trans girl with short hair having an identity crisis but like, is it though? Maybe I just want to be this now. Don’t judge me.
Force me to get another haircut please :3
Interested in doing this again please!!!
So, how big is it?
Circumcised or uncircumcised?
How musky?
What's the name you give for your dick?
Are the veins of your dick visible when it's soft?
Can you jerk off with two hands?
How full are your balls right now?
How many times do you jerk off in a day?
Have you ever cum during sleep?
What was one wet dream you still remember?
Did someone ever accidentally touched your dick? How that make you feel?
Have you ever used your ass for sexual pleasure? At all?
At what size does your dick stop fitting into your panties?
Briefs or boxers?
What kind of boy did the girls in your school perceive you as?
Do you automatically plan to pay for everything in a date?
What was the last girl you rated on how fuckable she was?
Just how obsessed with pussy are you?
Have a real woman ever called you a creep?
Your crush just told you they are not attracted to woman but love femboys. What do you do?
Can you speak without swearing?
When do you plan to hit the gym?
Have you joined the army?
Do you piss standing?
How loud can you burp?
Blue or green?
If you like boys, have you thought in buying a gay flag?
If you like girls, don't you think being more manly will attract more woman to you?
What fantasy do you visit often?
Have you ever realized you are a confused boy? If so, what made you realize?
This is precisely who I am rapidly becoming
men who make sexist jokes 💖
men who interrupt 💖
men who mansplain 💖
men who manspread 💖
men who manipulate 💖
men who grope 💖
men who gaslight 💖
men who pay their female employees less 💖
men who don’t hire women at all 💖
men who obviously don’t respect me 💖
men who only pretend to respect me 💖
men who want head and don’t give it in return 💖
men who think they have it worse than women 💖
men who know they have it better 💖
men who expect women to dress modest 💖
men who expect women to dress like sluts 💖
men who think women are public property 💖
men who think women are private property 💖
men who won’t let their girl start an onlyfans 💖
men who make their girl to start an onlyfans 💖
men who provide for women 💖
men who pimp and profit off women 💖
men disgusted by lesbianism 💖
men turned on by lesbianism 💖
men who are stern, stoic and fair 💖
men who are demanding, volatile and unfair 💖
misogynist men who treat women like cunts 💖
feminist men who treat women like cunts 💖
men 💖 men 💖 men 💖 men 💖 men 💖
for me a detrans kink isn’t about taking away his identity, it’s about letting him play with every messy piece of it. When he’s begging me to degrade him, he’s really begging me to accept every part of him, even the parts he’s terrified of.
He’s always been so guarded about gender, but in these moments, he’s wide open. When he’s desperate, humiliated, pleading to be my girl again, it’s not weakness, it’s bravery. Watching him break his own rules for pleasure makes me want to ruin him and protect him all at once.
I’m actively hurting myself and making bad decisions in order to hurt myself and I have literally no one to talk to and I’m just losing it and I made so so so many bad decisions last night and this just feels like a breaking point for me idk I just can’t keep doing this I can’t even function. I have literally no one I feel like I can talk to about this and I’m just losing it. I don’t know if I’ve ever been this bad before and the idea of that alone really sucks.
this is a cry for help please help me
alt bimbofication is definitely a thing, i think. just might be hard for now because of your more masculine appearance
I wouldn’t say I have a masculine appearance, just short hair, and even then it’s not that short anymore. I can still pass as a girl. What made you think I had a “more masculine appearance” did I say that?
If anything I can pull off either rn
sea 🎀
feel free to make bad choices with me in dms
I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?
At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.
When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”
When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.
It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.
So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.