For Me A Detrans Kink Isn’t About Taking Away His Identity, It’s About Letting Him Play With Every

The “gender roles and sexism are hot but queer people are valid” to “conversion kink is hot, but you can still be whatever gender you want” to “trans people are their birth gender and should follow traditional gender roles” pipeline

anyone come in my dms and ask me anything

Need to be a good boy and tell my deadname real name to people in my messages

I have reached another milestone in my detrans notes game! Because I hit 75 Notes I now have to go out in public as a guy sometimes. I had a specific meaning for this in mind but it was a little wordy to put in the notes game. Basically anytime I go somewhere alone, without friends or family, running an errand or just getting out of the house, I will put on a deep voice and let everyone see my short hair. I'll use the men's restroom and no one will think I was ever a girl.

True to the promise of my notes game I just bought TEN pairs of boxers and I will be throwing out my useless panties. It's ridiculous I was wearing panties in the first place, obviously they didn't fit. One of the things on the list is that every 50 notes I will pick up a new masculine interest. I am autistic so I'm someone who has a lot of intense, specific hobbies and interests. Some of them are already somewhat masculine, but I engage in them in somewhat feminine ways. For example I follow sports pretty closely and I like watching videos about history. Each time I hit 50 notes I will elevate one of those more male interests and I will try to engage with it in a more man-brained way. Maybe eventually I will pick up entirely new interests too, but they have to be something that I would even find interesting in the first place.

Also at this point I will not be able to shave for most of April (and counting) I intend to start the count of days I can't shave on April 1, just because it'll be easier to keep track of if it starts on the first of a month. I actually at this point have not shaved in 4 or 5 days so I'm undecided if I will shave on March 31 to reset it or not. I am somewhat leaning towards doing that but we'll see.

One last thing, I have edited the list a bit since I initially posted it. I will never change goals that have already been reached and I'll try not to move around goals I already listed unless I feel like they're in an order that is unnatural or doesn't make sense. For the most part I will only be adding new things to the list.

I intend to adhere to the list entirely and I will be posting proof that I followed through. Be sure to hold me accountable. Another thing, if I reach the point where I'm allowed to shave again, the notes game ends.

how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?

At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.

Looks like I'm a straight man then.

if you watch this all the way through you are a straight man

My detrans note game is only at 22 notes and I already screwed myself over so much... for every two I'm not going to shave for a day. That's already 11 days of not shaving in addition to the 3 or 4 that I haven't done just up to this point. I started hrt really young so I don't get that much facial hair but I have distinctly noticed when going off hrt for a couple weeks at a time that I get new hair on my cheeks. At this rate I'm going to have a full beard. 😵‍💫

I've decided that March 30 counts as Day 1 of the start of the not shaving and not taking hrt goals.

Tomorrow I’m hooking up with a fakeboy irl and we’re going to start working towards fixing each other <3

Went through a whole arc about my facial hair today but in the end it is now gone :)

random idea:

getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…

oh wait… that already happend 😵‍💫💕