Went Through A Whole Arc About My Facial Hair Today But In The End It Is Now Gone :)

I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.

Need people in my dms to encourage me to continue to detransition, since I’ve been having some doubts. I’m still off hrt, but I’m really tempted to shave and ruin the notes game. Someone needs to stop me!!!

I should be honest I’m starting to question how realistic it is for me to follow through on my detrans notes game, at least at the moment. I’m getting some doubts about all this. Knowing how this has gone for me in the past those doubts will probably go away again at some point but I definitely am not willing to change my pronouns to he/him on my public socials at the moment so that probably says something about how I feel about this. Regarding the no shaving one… I would feel bad not following through on that when so many people wanted me to. I will either keep not shaving until it becomes impractical and I need to shave, or I will escape my delusions of femininity and actually never shave again idk, we’ll see.

Hello!

I like dms :) i'm a loser fake girl (a normal boy) potentially detransitioning

I know you spent so much time acquiring your perfect girl voice uwu but that will only make your detransition hotter.

Jerk off to dirty sweaty porn while imagining forcing yourself upon the women you love and let out the manliest grunt when cumming. Make it extra deep.

Take a mental snapshot of this moment. Redo it again every 3 hours. Replay this feeling in your head 24/7. If you managed to brainwash yourself into believing you were female, you can reprogram yourself into a male. ♥️

thenn i will

totally not a little fantasy of mine to take advantage of someone, despite being a sub

I love that kind of thing, it is very welcome for me.

love freckles + braces 😍

Normalize cute, cis-passing trans girls throwing it all away and becoming hairy, masculine, straight alpha males.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

and at this point it's much more than just a kink.

sea 🎀

feel free to make bad choices with me in dms