This Is Precisely Who I Am Rapidly Becoming

I’m fully postop and completely passable and yet detrans kink stuff turns me on so much more than anything else. What should I do?

I was also totally passable and yet here we are. Heck I could still be totally possible if I wore the right clothes and put a wig and makeup on, but here we are. With regard to being post-op, that does make it a little tougher but I think that almost makes it hotter? I think you should detrans for the kink and not question your doubts at all.

For the ask game- 1 🤭

Finally getting around to answering these~

How big is my penis? I think many years ago before hrt I measured it and it was 8 inches but I feel like that can’t possibly be true, I probably measured it wrong. I will say, every time I have sex with someone and they see it the reaction is always “oh my god that’s huge!” but idk I don’t really buy it. It’s definitely very thick, but long? It’s maybe average.

ooooor maybe i’m so porn brained from seeing a million porn penises that I have an unrealistic idea of what a normal size is.

Even when I was a girl this was the kind of girl I tried to be lol

this means fakeboys!!!

Interested in doing this again please!!!

Fun ask game for MTFs!

So, how big is it?

Circumcised or uncircumcised?

How musky?

What's the name you give for your dick?

Are the veins of your dick visible when it's soft?

Can you jerk off with two hands?

How full are your balls right now?

How many times do you jerk off in a day?

Have you ever cum during sleep?

What was one wet dream you still remember?

Did someone ever accidentally touched your dick? How that make you feel?

Have you ever used your ass for sexual pleasure? At all?

At what size does your dick stop fitting into your panties?

Briefs or boxers?

What kind of boy did the girls in your school perceive you as?

Do you automatically plan to pay for everything in a date?

What was the last girl you rated on how fuckable she was?

Just how obsessed with pussy are you?

Have a real woman ever called you a creep?

Your crush just told you they are not attracted to woman but love femboys. What do you do?

Can you speak without swearing?

When do you plan to hit the gym?

Have you joined the army?

Do you piss standing?

How loud can you burp?

Blue or green?

If you like boys, have you thought in buying a gay flag?

If you like girls, don't you think being more manly will attract more woman to you?

What fantasy do you visit often?

Have you ever realized you are a confused boy? If so, what made you realize?

My detrans note game is only at 22 notes and I already screwed myself over so much... for every two I'm not going to shave for a day. That's already 11 days of not shaving in addition to the 3 or 4 that I haven't done just up to this point. I started hrt really young so I don't get that much facial hair but I have distinctly noticed when going off hrt for a couple weeks at a time that I get new hair on my cheeks. At this rate I'm going to have a full beard. 😵‍💫

I've decided that March 30 counts as Day 1 of the start of the not shaving and not taking hrt goals.

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.

I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P

Tomorrow I’m hooking up with a fakeboy irl and we’re going to start working towards fixing each other <3

What makes you feel like a girl? Asking so you know what to get rid of.

Oh that’s an interesting question with a complicated answer and I’m not quite sure I’m in the headspace to answer it thoroughly.

To be perfectly honest I’m intersex, my genitals are mostly the same for a male so it wasn’t super explicitly obvious at first, but a lot of other things were not normal for me, so my experience with biological sex when I started puberty was not typical for a male, and I grew breasts and didn’t have much testosterone. I identified more strongly with being a girl in middle school because I felt like I related to the girls in my class more than the boys and even my experiences with my body developing made me feel like I wasn’t anything like “normal” boys. I don’t know if I mentioned this here but I actually initially transitioned in middle school and don’t even really have much experience with being male besides a window of a few years as a teenager when i gave it a shot.

My voice sounds like a cis woman’s voice, and to even sound male at all it hurts a bit after a while and doesn’t even necessarily sound convincing, my mannerisms and behaviors are typically feminine, I just generally don’t come across as male in any way.

Lately I’ve had short hair, I’ve been wearing hoodies and jeans, sometimes I don’t shave for a week.

It’s still “here’s your food honey!” “we’ll be right with you miss” “have a nice day ma’am” and men asking if I have a boyfriend, guys talking down to me and over-explaining things… It has always been this way for me. I have much more experience living the typical life of a girl and then as a woman. Even when I tried to be a guy from around age 16 to 19 it was extremely fake and I wasn’t very good at it and people still assumed I was a girl sometimes. I’d get the occasional “oh I thought you were just a tomboy” from kids I didn’t know that well in high school.

So, everything about me is female. I’m basically a cis girl with male genitals. I never had any shot of being a man. I think that’s why detrans kink is so hot to me? but it’s also why it’s so impractical.

I’m like actively trying to be a guy lately and failing, so idk what to do. I’m probably just an intersex girl.