I’m Fully Postop And Completely Passable And Yet Detrans Kink Stuff Turns Me On So Much More Than Anything

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

I've cum to this like 5 times now.

Real men deserve worship

random idea:

getting brainwashed so your deadname real name becomes a trigger that turns you on…

oh wait… that already happend 😵‍💫💕

Whats the main thing keeping you from throwing it all away and what might help push you over that edge?

Well especially the past few days I really just feel like I want to totally go back to being a girl. aaand yet… I keep getting dragged back into this kink…

It almost feels like it isn’t a choice anymore. Like I’m destined to become male. The main thing stopping me is the expectations of the people in my life. Socially detransitioning would be the hard part, admitting that I want to be a guy and all, especially to people who are gonna say “I told you so”.

I’m not exactly sure what would allow me to go through with it, I think I would to be mentally conditioned to feel significantly more comfortable being male, or even to get uncomfortable being associated with anything feminine. This is why I say I think dedicated hypnosis might help.

how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?

At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.

Normalize cute, cis-passing trans girls throwing it all away and becoming hairy, masculine, straight alpha males.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

and at this point it's much more than just a kink.

When you honestly can’t tell what’s kink thoughts/beliefs and what’s your real thoughts/beliefs anymore…guess it means the brainwashing/conditioning is working? 😅 still don’t know if that’s good or bad…

I don’t really know how realistic it is for me to not shave for months, or maybe even forever… I need someone to hold me accountable I guess. I’ve been getting a lot of doubts about detrans lately and that’s unacceptable. That’s why it needs to be forced on me to some extent. I might never stick to it on my own.

sea 🎀

feel free to make bad choices with me in dms

I have been skipping my hrt most of this year. Even when I have doubts about detrans I still usually don’t take it. I haven’t really noticed many changes yet, besides it being easier to get an erection and developing a tiny bit more facial hair, but the reason I’m doing it is for my breeding kink :P