Maybe Might Take A Different Angle With This Stuff And Try To Aggressively Feminize Myself And See If

Oh I forgot I impulsively said this, oops. I failed it. I'll reduce the notes needed for the really big goals.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

Cute, pretty, quirky girl cursed to get an erection when she thinks about someone pressuring her to become a dirty gross man

I'M NOT A GIRL AND IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SAY THAT!!!

The “gender roles and sexism are hot but queer people are valid” to “conversion kink is hot, but you can still be whatever gender you want” to “trans people are their birth gender and should follow traditional gender roles” pipeline

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

alt bimbofication is definitely a thing, i think. just might be hard for now because of your more masculine appearance

I wouldn’t say I have a masculine appearance, just short hair, and even then it’s not that short anymore. I can still pass as a girl. What made you think I had a “more masculine appearance” did I say that?

If anything I can pull off either rn

Normalize cute, cis-passing trans girls throwing it all away and becoming hairy, masculine, straight alpha males.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

and at this point it's much more than just a kink.

Interested in doing this again please!!!

Fun ask game for MTFs!

So, how big is it?

Circumcised or uncircumcised?

How musky?

What's the name you give for your dick?

Are the veins of your dick visible when it's soft?

Can you jerk off with two hands?

How full are your balls right now?

How many times do you jerk off in a day?

Have you ever cum during sleep?

What was one wet dream you still remember?

Did someone ever accidentally touched your dick? How that make you feel?

Have you ever used your ass for sexual pleasure? At all?

At what size does your dick stop fitting into your panties?

Briefs or boxers?

What kind of boy did the girls in your school perceive you as?

Do you automatically plan to pay for everything in a date?

What was the last girl you rated on how fuckable she was?

Just how obsessed with pussy are you?

Have a real woman ever called you a creep?

Your crush just told you they are not attracted to woman but love femboys. What do you do?

Can you speak without swearing?

When do you plan to hit the gym?

Have you joined the army?

Do you piss standing?

How loud can you burp?

Blue or green?

If you like boys, have you thought in buying a gay flag?

If you like girls, don't you think being more manly will attract more woman to you?

What fantasy do you visit often?

Have you ever realized you are a confused boy? If so, what made you realize?

maybe you could get something semi androgynous, a haircut you can style either feminine or masculine depending on the day. i know you said you wanna commit to one permanently but for now you can just do that maybe?

Yeah so, I’m maybe a bit more clear headed about this than usual right now so I can give a very genuine answer: That’s probably a good idea, and realistically I probably am gender fluid. I think the reason I’m so hesitant to identify with gender fluidity is because I’d have to give up my “one of the good ones” sticker, which like I know is not good motivation but idk when someone tells me “You’re the first trans person I’ve seen that I think actually looks and sounds good” I’m kind of like “ew that’s transphobic but also an incredibly strong compliment i think???”

My concern about this is less about randos on the Internet and more about how some of my extended family sees me. It might complicate my life if I started openly saying “Yeah I’m fine with being a boy sometimes”

Having an androgynous haircut would probably be good! Something where I can pass as either cis male or cis female (which is probably achievable for me!)

That being said, and I’m at risk of hinting at my identity here a little bit, I’m going to in an indie film production later this year and I play a male character (it’s a sequel to something from before I transitioned) so really I just need to have a haircut that fits that role and then after we wrap I’ll probably get it styled in a feminine way.

Most likely I won’t do anything with my hair at all until we start filming in order to maximize the options for how my character’s hair can look because we haven’t 100% decided yet. My plan for after we’re done is actually basically the Gwenpool or Enid Sinclair haircut lol so, blonde, around shoulder length or a little shorter with the ends dyed pink or something similar.

That being said we might not finish filming this for quite a while, so actually I’m trapped in boyness whether I like it or not (which is part of why I’ve been so into this kink lately) but I was the one who decided we should just keep the character male anyway so whose fault is it really?

(He really wouldn’t have worked as a trans character at all)

I had kind of an interesting discussion last night that made me confront some of my internalized transphobia and it made me realize that my detrans kink stems from an aversion to being considered trans. In the past I was really obsessed with being seen as a cis girl, and then since I shaved my head (which was part because of detrans kink and part just me being impulsive) I’ve been in this weird position where because I can’t pass perfectly as a cis girl anymore I feel like I need to go the opposite direction and be seen as a cis guy, and it’s made it difficult to separate the kink from reality. I really do love being a girl and it is certainly my preferred way of being, and committing to detransitioning is probably very bad for me. I put my hrt back in my pill box because I don’t wanna go bald like my dad lol. Obviously I’ll keep jacking off to it I just need to stop acting like actually detransitioning is a good idea (just wait I’ll relapse back into it in under a week). I will miss my big erections and… hm. well I was about to take my meds right now… maybe I could skip my hrt again? I mean there’s no harm in that right? I can keep being a girl and not take hrt for a bit. It’s not like there will be any permanent damage. I just want to be able to get hard. Yeah that’s it. I’m still a girl. I am still a girl. Mmhmm…