Rawr, X3, Pounces On You, Yeah Yeah That’s All Well And Good But Where’s The Passion? Where’s The

Okay doubts over for now!!! I’m back to wanting to be a cis man. I went out in public today as a guy, even wearing a binder. I still sounded like a girl, unlearning voice training is harder than you’d think when you’ve sounded like a cis girl for years.

I feel like I’m really coming across as trans masc here and maybe that’s basically what I am at this point. I’m guessing most people that see me in public think I’m trans masc. My facial features are soft and feminine, I’m relatively short, if I’m not wearing a binder (which most of the time I’m not) I have noticeable breasts, my voice does not sound like a cis man at all, the small amount of facial hair I have looks like it just started growing.

I think the assumption for anyone would have to be either that I’m afab trans masc or maybe alternatively that I’m significantly younger than I am. I think add to that I’ve always been kinda afab-coded (I tone it down for this blog because of the nature of it) and trying to sell people on the idea that I’m a cis guy is probably not easy.

I would say if anything at this point I look like I haven’t aged since I started taking hrt and if anything look even younger than that because of the effects of estrogen, so even if I told someone I’m a cis guy they’d probably guess I’m like 18 or 19 (I’m about to turn 25)

This isn’t really a detrans kink post as much as it’s just a detrans post, but it’s interesting. I think pulling the curtains back on the kink stuff… a lot of this isn’t kink for me. Part of me still very much so wants to be a girl, and to be perfectly honest my personality and mannerisms and way of speaking are so naturally feminine that I would have to fundamentally change who I am as a person at my core to meet the detrans goals I have in mind. That’s not easy at all, but still it’s exciting to try and I want to see how far I can go with it.

Because of the nature of my personality my natural state is probably being female, I guess in the back of my head I’m pretty sure that if I detransition I’ll retransition eventually. That’s why I’m so tempted to ruin every chance I have at being a girl, going off hrt for a while and trying to change my personality and all that.

We’ll see how it goes :)

Oh I forgot I impulsively said this, oops. I failed it. I'll reduce the notes needed for the really big goals.

Let’s play a little game. If I can’t go the whole day without cumming I’ll cut every goal in my detrans notes game in half. (This is almost impossible)

1, 5, 8, 10, 11, 17, 19~

1. I haven't measured it in ages, as far as I know it's 8 inches but that could be way off if I did it wrong. It's very thick

5. The veins on it are not visible at all no

8. I jerk off a lot, I'm addicted, sometimes I cum around 5 times a day

10. I've actually never had a wet dream as far as I know

11. I don't know if anyone has accidentally touched me there, but if they did I would love it.

17. I don't really rate girls but I should definitely start doing that.

19. I've definitely been called a creep, especially recently

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

I can’t wait for your guy self to win. Do you think it’ll be long before it happens?

At the moment I’m the girl self so I can say something from kind of a different angle.

When I want to be a guy I take a lot of steps towards masculinization and try to sabotage my “girl self”

When I’m a girl I never really get more feminine. I never try to fix things. In fact I still engage in this detrans stuff.

It’s like… I’m just genuinely not in the mindset of BEING a girl ever anymore. A lot of the time I WANT to be a girl, like I used to be, but I’m just… not one. If I try to be all feminine it feels like I’m faking it. Like I’m crossdressing. I want so badly to go back to feeling comfortable as a girl, I just can’t seem to anymore.

So to answer your question, I’m not sure it will be long.

How many cunts have you bred?

2 but I didn’t cum inside so I’m not sure if that counts as “bred” hope to increase that number significantly.

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

Welp, today is the last day I’m allowed to shave before the limits on the detrans notes game kick in.

I’ll make myself pretty one last time before throwing away my femininity forever.

I would just not shave today either but I have some final business to take care of where I need to be a girl.

I also reached 100 notes so I do need to get a haircut soon.

maybe you could get something semi androgynous, a haircut you can style either feminine or masculine depending on the day. i know you said you wanna commit to one permanently but for now you can just do that maybe?

Yeah so, I’m maybe a bit more clear headed about this than usual right now so I can give a very genuine answer: That’s probably a good idea, and realistically I probably am gender fluid. I think the reason I’m so hesitant to identify with gender fluidity is because I’d have to give up my “one of the good ones” sticker, which like I know is not good motivation but idk when someone tells me “You’re the first trans person I’ve seen that I think actually looks and sounds good” I’m kind of like “ew that’s transphobic but also an incredibly strong compliment i think???”

My concern about this is less about randos on the Internet and more about how some of my extended family sees me. It might complicate my life if I started openly saying “Yeah I’m fine with being a boy sometimes”

Having an androgynous haircut would probably be good! Something where I can pass as either cis male or cis female (which is probably achievable for me!)

That being said, and I’m at risk of hinting at my identity here a little bit, I’m going to in an indie film production later this year and I play a male character (it’s a sequel to something from before I transitioned) so really I just need to have a haircut that fits that role and then after we wrap I’ll probably get it styled in a feminine way.

Most likely I won’t do anything with my hair at all until we start filming in order to maximize the options for how my character’s hair can look because we haven’t 100% decided yet. My plan for after we’re done is actually basically the Gwenpool or Enid Sinclair haircut lol so, blonde, around shoulder length or a little shorter with the ends dyed pink or something similar.

That being said we might not finish filming this for quite a while, so actually I’m trapped in boyness whether I like it or not (which is part of why I’ve been so into this kink lately) but I was the one who decided we should just keep the character male anyway so whose fault is it really?

(He really wouldn’t have worked as a trans character at all)

For any ftm chicks that wanna see my mtf man penis: my dms are open. 😘