Something I'm Absolutely Fucking Weak For Is When Dudes Gain Weight And In The Process Manage To Look

Howdy. I'm a 26-year-old degenerate fakegirl who ought to be corrected. That is to say, deluding myself that I'll ever be a woman is a tragic farce. Real women don't crank their dicks to fakegirls throwing out their estrogen. Real women don't constantly sit around in a horny daze, dreaming of being victimized, dreaming of being pumped back full of T and having their fake girlpills thrown out. I'm shameless. Seriously. Bully me, ask me for dick pics, whatever. I'll hand 'em out readily. Remind me of how I'll never, ever be any type of woman at all.

detrans is so hot

literally I can't think of anything hotter than seeing a cute girl(male lol) turn back into a hot man. The t pumping through him changing everything on his body, making it pointless to ever try and go back. It's so fucking sexy. Like give yourself up for your penis. It's actually great for you lmao

I should be honest I’m starting to question how realistic it is for me to follow through on my detrans notes game, at least at the moment. I’m getting some doubts about all this. Knowing how this has gone for me in the past those doubts will probably go away again at some point but I definitely am not willing to change my pronouns to he/him on my public socials at the moment so that probably says something about how I feel about this. Regarding the no shaving one… I would feel bad not following through on that when so many people wanted me to. I will either keep not shaving until it becomes impractical and I need to shave, or I will escape my delusions of femininity and actually never shave again idk, we’ll see.

ugh i need to have her or something like her

True to the promise of my notes game I just bought TEN pairs of boxers and I will be throwing out my useless panties. It's ridiculous I was wearing panties in the first place, obviously they didn't fit. One of the things on the list is that every 50 notes I will pick up a new masculine interest. I am autistic so I'm someone who has a lot of intense, specific hobbies and interests. Some of them are already somewhat masculine, but I engage in them in somewhat feminine ways. For example I follow sports pretty closely and I like watching videos about history. Each time I hit 50 notes I will elevate one of those more male interests and I will try to engage with it in a more man-brained way. Maybe eventually I will pick up entirely new interests too, but they have to be something that I would even find interesting in the first place.

Also at this point I will not be able to shave for most of April (and counting) I intend to start the count of days I can't shave on April 1, just because it'll be easier to keep track of if it starts on the first of a month. I actually at this point have not shaved in 4 or 5 days so I'm undecided if I will shave on March 31 to reset it or not. I am somewhat leaning towards doing that but we'll see.

One last thing, I have edited the list a bit since I initially posted it. I will never change goals that have already been reached and I'll try not to move around goals I already listed unless I feel like they're in an order that is unnatural or doesn't make sense. For the most part I will only be adding new things to the list.

I intend to adhere to the list entirely and I will be posting proof that I followed through. Be sure to hold me accountable. Another thing, if I reach the point where I'm allowed to shave again, the notes game ends.

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

Nah take the pills anyway, it’ll be funny (Or give them to a fakeboy)

Maybe I should start taking prog just to see what effect it has on me lol

would you recommend detransitioning to other trans "girls"?

hmmm it depends. I think it would probably be good for a lot of them. I have three answers to this.

trans rights answer: chances are this kink is a complicated psychological response to insecurities you have about your gender and you should try to pick them apart and figure out what you really wanna do if you pull back the curtains of trauma and insecurity and such. There’s a chance maybe you should actually detransition! Gender is something that can change over time and maybe you used to be a trans girl and that is no longer the case. People evolve and it’s okay to decide being a girl is no longer for you.

internalized transphobia answer: You will never be a cis girl, and is being a “trans” girl even worth it? Either you don’t pass and like, okay ew, what are you doing thinking you can be a real girl?? Just be a guy. OR you pass and are pretty and stealth which like okay cutie you get to cosplay as a cis girl but how long is that really gonna last?

bioessentialist answer: i know you’ve got the idea in your head that that it doesn’t matter that you’re biologically male and that you can identify however you want but like c’mon dude 💀 it’s a little cliche to just say XY = Male but let’s be real, your genetics having programming in them that build your body to a specific design and every action you take to realize your mental gender is working against the very nature of your physical destiny. It’s exhausting isn’t it? Just give into your DNA! It’d look good on you.

What makes you feel like a girl? Asking so you know what to get rid of.

Oh that’s an interesting question with a complicated answer and I’m not quite sure I’m in the headspace to answer it thoroughly.

To be perfectly honest I’m intersex, my genitals are mostly the same for a male so it wasn’t super explicitly obvious at first, but a lot of other things were not normal for me, so my experience with biological sex when I started puberty was not typical for a male, and I grew breasts and didn’t have much testosterone. I identified more strongly with being a girl in middle school because I felt like I related to the girls in my class more than the boys and even my experiences with my body developing made me feel like I wasn’t anything like “normal” boys. I don’t know if I mentioned this here but I actually initially transitioned in middle school and don’t even really have much experience with being male besides a window of a few years as a teenager when i gave it a shot.

My voice sounds like a cis woman’s voice, and to even sound male at all it hurts a bit after a while and doesn’t even necessarily sound convincing, my mannerisms and behaviors are typically feminine, I just generally don’t come across as male in any way.

Lately I’ve had short hair, I’ve been wearing hoodies and jeans, sometimes I don’t shave for a week.

It’s still “here’s your food honey!” “we’ll be right with you miss” “have a nice day ma’am” and men asking if I have a boyfriend, guys talking down to me and over-explaining things… It has always been this way for me. I have much more experience living the typical life of a girl and then as a woman. Even when I tried to be a guy from around age 16 to 19 it was extremely fake and I wasn’t very good at it and people still assumed I was a girl sometimes. I’d get the occasional “oh I thought you were just a tomboy” from kids I didn’t know that well in high school.

So, everything about me is female. I’m basically a cis girl with male genitals. I never had any shot of being a man. I think that’s why detrans kink is so hot to me? but it’s also why it’s so impractical.

I’m like actively trying to be a guy lately and failing, so idk what to do. I’m probably just an intersex girl.

me: Well at least my misogyny is just a silly kink, I do actually respect women after all

the truth: I spend all day everyday gooning to objectified pregnant women, feet, egirls, and a lot of SFW pics of women who probably had no idea their pictures would be used as jackoff material… and I can’t stop myself.