I Think The Reason Being A Guy Appeals To Me Is That When I Have Sexual Fantasies I Always Picture Myself

that gif you reblogged… I need to be the girl worshiping your bulge

Then don't be shy, come in my dms and become my girl <3

Are you american?

yes I am!

maybe you could get something semi androgynous, a haircut you can style either feminine or masculine depending on the day. i know you said you wanna commit to one permanently but for now you can just do that maybe?

Yeah so, I’m maybe a bit more clear headed about this than usual right now so I can give a very genuine answer: That’s probably a good idea, and realistically I probably am gender fluid. I think the reason I’m so hesitant to identify with gender fluidity is because I’d have to give up my “one of the good ones” sticker, which like I know is not good motivation but idk when someone tells me “You’re the first trans person I’ve seen that I think actually looks and sounds good” I’m kind of like “ew that’s transphobic but also an incredibly strong compliment i think???”

My concern about this is less about randos on the Internet and more about how some of my extended family sees me. It might complicate my life if I started openly saying “Yeah I’m fine with being a boy sometimes”

Having an androgynous haircut would probably be good! Something where I can pass as either cis male or cis female (which is probably achievable for me!)

That being said, and I’m at risk of hinting at my identity here a little bit, I’m going to in an indie film production later this year and I play a male character (it’s a sequel to something from before I transitioned) so really I just need to have a haircut that fits that role and then after we wrap I’ll probably get it styled in a feminine way.

Most likely I won’t do anything with my hair at all until we start filming in order to maximize the options for how my character’s hair can look because we haven’t 100% decided yet. My plan for after we’re done is actually basically the Gwenpool or Enid Sinclair haircut lol so, blonde, around shoulder length or a little shorter with the ends dyed pink or something similar.

That being said we might not finish filming this for quite a while, so actually I’m trapped in boyness whether I like it or not (which is part of why I’ve been so into this kink lately) but I was the one who decided we should just keep the character male anyway so whose fault is it really?

(He really wouldn’t have worked as a trans character at all)

I have now filled my pillbox for the week aaaand… no hrt!

I have a bunch of left over progesterone from when I used to take progesterone and I’m curious if that would turn me back into a girl mentally.

Maybe that sounds crazy but I remember it making me feel a lot more feminine back when I took it.

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

please please please but also it could be a girl too maybe

god i just. i need a detransed Daddy, ideally older but i'm not fussy, to just take full control of my detransition. no asking what i want, just taking the reins and turning me into exactly the boyfriend he wants, whether that's a manly skinhead leatherfag or a prissy sissy crossdresser, i just NEED a cured man to choose for me

Would really appreciate more detrans related asks! I am very honest about this whole thing, I’ll answer any question. You can also just bully me or try to convince me to detrans. Also kiiinda related… looking for a hypnotist to help me with detrans kink?? Shape my personality at my core…

Either way, itd be hot to be a pretty girl getting her cock milked right? It sounds hot

being a pretty girl sounds nice yeah, getting milked? idk i’m more of a dominant type regardless of my gender. I have been submissive in the past but in sort of a power bottom way. The main way I like being submissive, at least in a sense, is through being the object of someone’s desires. I used to be really into being a hot untouchable egirl findomme, but it made me feel submissive in a sense because people were pursuing me, and I liked teasing them for it. Kinda want to go back to that ig.

I mentioned I shaved my head in October… my hair is long enough at this point that if I put some makeup on I do look pretty, but it’s still not effortless. A lot of why I fell so hard into detrans kink the past half year or so is because when I looked in the mirror I felt like I saw a guy. That’s a little different now I guess but I would still like my hair to be longer.

This is precisely who I am rapidly becoming

appreciation post for my betters 💖

men who make sexist jokes 💖

men who interrupt 💖

men who mansplain 💖

men who manspread 💖

men who manipulate 💖

men who grope 💖

men who gaslight 💖

men who pay their female employees less 💖

men who don’t hire women at all 💖

men who obviously don’t respect me 💖

men who only pretend to respect me 💖

men who want head and don’t give it in return 💖

men who think they have it worse than women 💖

men who know they have it better 💖

men who expect women to dress modest 💖

men who expect women to dress like sluts 💖

men who think women are public property 💖

men who think women are private property 💖

men who won’t let their girl start an onlyfans 💖

men who make their girl to start an onlyfans 💖

men who provide for women 💖

men who pimp and profit off women 💖

men disgusted by lesbianism 💖

men turned on by lesbianism 💖

men who are stern, stoic and fair 💖

men who are demanding, volatile and unfair 💖

misogynist men who treat women like cunts 💖

feminist men who treat women like cunts 💖

men 💖 men 💖 men 💖 men 💖 men 💖

not really my place to judge, but i find it interesting that you frame detransition as "getting worse," inherently degrading and something you'd need to be forced into. it makes this kink seem like an elaborate form of self-harm.

not that i can judge, i browse these kinds of blogs because they make me feel miserable by proxy!

Yep.

lol yep.

You hit the nail on the head.

What can I say, self harm is really hot :P

Cutting my arms doesn’t do it for me, it has to be deeply psychological.

this isn’t really a question but i do hope one day you can be happy as yourself, whether thats female or male i really want u to be happy

Thanks. I think I am “happy” just confused. The main frustrating thing to me with this whole thing is I’m a content creator and all this flip flopping about gender has made me not really want to show my face, which is setting me back a lot. How I present myself to the world is complicated and confusing and I want to stick to just one thing.

Realistically I’m probably a gender fluid person that wants to stick to one gender. Being male and female permanently both have merit to me. I’ll figure it out eventually.

I think I’ve mentioned this but I completely shaved my head in October, so for a long time even if I wanted to be a girl I looked pretty male because of the short hair.

I’m reaching the point soon where I can either start convincingly passing as a girl again or I can get a male haircut. I don’t know which to do.