You're Lonely?

𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓳𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓽

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if I can feel your presence with me.

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if my racing heart and the storms in my head get calm

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if your scent will linger around me and trigger the nostalgia.

I wrap myself in your jacket,

As if your arms are wrapped around me.

I wrap myself in your jacket and wish it was you instead.

I used to be this happy soul with a goofy personality.

Now I look at people around me and wonder how they are able to smile in this chaotic world.

I wish to make my love pure again.

Lately, I've been wanting someone to compliment me.

I have so much self hatred in myself these days that I can't look at the camera or the mirror without my smile fading.

I want someone to tell me that I'm worthy, that I'm not as bad as I think i am and that it will get better.

Sometimes I feel like I want to get my life sort out. I want to be productive both mentally and physically.

But then I remember the regrets I have and the people I've hurt and my brain tell myself "You don't deserve to have a happy life."

I wish I could turn back time,

To when we had our first connection.

I would write our story all over again,

But this time with more experience.

I am chaos,

I am cursed,

I bring destruction to the table,

I ruin everything,

Everything that I have ever touched,

Everything that I have ever felt,

Everything...that I have ever loved.

10.03.2021 (Part1)

Hii Tumblr People❤️

Shu here and I just wanna share a small insight of my recent days.

So, I live on an island in the Indian Ocean where there were zero local cases of Covid19 for the last 3 or 4 months. Life here was back to normal compared to other countries. However, two days ago the authorities found a local case and since then the numbers keep increasing. The government came forward yesterday to address that we will be in lockdown for around 2 weeks.

So since there isn't much to do at home, I've decided that I will take this opportunity to share more here; about my day, the news, and much more.

As you can see in the picture, today is a good day. It's sunny with a little bit of wind. The perfect weather for a beach day. Sadly covid19 said no to beach day. I'm feeling rather overwhelmed lately. I've been feeling a lot, both negative and positive and it's hard to control. I'll do my best to sort those feelings out.

You people can follow me for more and I appreciate any support. ❤️

𝓘 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓪𝓵𝔀𝓪𝔂𝓼 𝓻𝓾𝓷 𝓫𝓪𝓬𝓴 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓲𝓶.

Even when the earth beneath my feet is crumbling,

Even when the oceans of the world are raging,

Even when the sky is at war manisfesting storms,

Even when everything around me is burning in hell fire,

Even when souls around me are leaving their bodies,

I will always run back to him.

Do you ever get sick? But it's not physical or mental. It's just emotionally sick.