𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓳𝓪𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓽

I've become very silent lately. I keep telling myself that it's because I need some time alone or that I'm finally at peace with my loneliness.

But, somewhere, I feel like it's because I'm tired. I'm tired of speaking up everytime without being understood so I choose to keep everything inside.

You people don't understand, do you?

You people don't understand how much i love him. My love for this man is like a burning passion. It burns me inside out in the most ethereal way. It became the only thing that would urge me to reach the other edge of the world.

This world made love become such a joke. I agree, the definition of love is not fixed. It is different for various people and it changes with the course of time. However, I don't get how it became to this. People are so easy to walk away from love. People are so easy to make love insignificant. People are so easy to to choose a good time over a good thing.

Because of this, I've suppressed my love for him for months now. People made me believe that love is secondary. Love is not something to yearn for. People were so quick to categorise me as a crazy obsessive person. And because of this, I've tainted my own love for him. But not anymore, I will not listen to anyone anymore when it comes to my love for him. I will do solely what my heart desires more for him.

You can call me a crazy lover, you can call me an obsessive person, you can call me a hopeless romantic. I will not care what you call me because only me, my heart, my brain and my body knows how much love I have for him.

I want to be held.

I feel like if I'm not held by the right person anytime soon I will break into thousands of pieces.

Do you ever get sick? But it's not physical or mental. It's just emotionally sick.

Sometimes I feel like I want to get my life sort out. I want to be productive both mentally and physically.

But then I remember the regrets I have and the people I've hurt and my brain tell myself "You don't deserve to have a happy life."

Hii Tumblr people,

This is my first post on this account or this app in general. I came here with the intention of expressing myself, whether in my own words, in other's words, pictures, thoughts, feelings and much more.

I am turning 20 this year. I've seen and heard people say that your 20s are made just for you..that you should spend it alone to discover yourself. And, I want to do just that but I also want to record it. Leave some type of memory about it behind.

I've tried Journaling but I guess it's just not for me. So here I am. Ready to embark and happy to receive you people's support.

I used to be this happy soul with a goofy personality.

Now I look at people around me and wonder how they are able to smile in this chaotic world.

I did not want to grow up.

I do not want to grow up anymore.

I wish to make my love pure again.