Just Spent The Last Three Hours Rereading Journal 3 For Fun. So, In The Washed Away Au, Since The Journals

Just wondering, if I were to sell my tiny Bill Cipher's, would anyone actually be interested? Also, how much would you be willing to pay, because I need to have an idea on how much to charge.

Weridmaggedon is the part of the Washed Away au I'm most looking forward to writing. It is also the part I don't have planned. However, just know that Penni will have a lot of parallels with Ford during it.

A new pope has been selected. Better keep Stanley Pines away from this one.

Nimirylov, how have you been doing after Ford's disappearance? Have you struggled adjusting to becoming a single parent?

(I hope you don't mind the two questions. You can only answer one if it's easier.)

Thank you for your deep questions. They are not something I would normally think about, so I'll answer to the best of my ability.

Ford is dead. That's what I have to keep reminding myself. He's dead. He's dead. He's dead. I know he's not coming back, so even if he isn't officially dead, he's dead. I can't give myself, or Penni, any false hope that he'd return to us.

So Ford is dead. That's what I've told everyone, and if they believe it, then I can make myself believe it. I can handle the stages of the grief for someone who's dead. It's so much harder to mourn for someone living.

Other than trying to make myself believe that, I don't think I'm struggling at all. After all, I can't struggle. I don't have the time for it. Luckily, I've been given less work to do lately (they didn't say that, but I can tell), which means I can focus on Penni more.

Becoming a single parent is a struggle in its own right, of course, but I can't seem to focus on that. Nothing compares to the struggle of seeing how much Penni is suffering because of this. She's so young, too young. I have no idea what to do because this isn't a problem I can solve. No amount of comfort will ever bring her dad back for her. That's the real struggle.

I just wish I knew why Ford disappeared. My only lifeline is that I know he didn't do it by choice. His behaviour is always terribly obvious, and I would have known if he was planning to run away. That way, I could've stopped him... If only I knew why he'd disappeared...

Sincerely,

Prince Nimirylov.

Right after Nimirylov and Ford started dating:

Just watched Six the Musical at the pictures. I, of course, still ended up thinking about Gravity Falls and my au afterwards. So, since I need to establish more of Nimirylov's character, the song from Six that fits him the best is Heart of Stone. Obviously, it doesn't fit him perfectly, but it does fit the best.

Mabel having six fingers is one of my favourite aus. I mean, I love any au centred on Mabel, and I love any parallels between Mabel and Ford, so it's not surprising but I just love it.

...and then they were attacked by gnomes lol

This is what cleverly entitled "Six-point comic" (AKA Dipper discovering journal 3 in a universe where Mabel also has polydactyly)

The inspiration was this over on Ao3 by @wickerss-s (hope you don't mind being @'d)

Bonus:

I'm not actually going to do anything with this idea, but it's been slightly infecting my brain.

My favourite one of the more mainstream gravity falls aus is Drifting Stars. So, combine that with my Washed Away au. Ford and Nimirylov are on their nice date when suddenly a portal opens up, and a human girl about their daughters age falls out. She's clearly not fine, passed out, and neither of them could even imagine just leaving her like that...

Mabel wakes up in a strange cottage. All she can remember is the flash of white after letting go of the button. Then walks in a weird aquatic man followed by someone who she mistakes for Stan at first.

Not the most clear but I thought I'd post pictures of the fish language i mentioned in the comments of my last post. This is only what I've got for now but I do want to make it important for my au (which I still need to think of name for).

Quick summary for anyone randomly stumbling upon this and is confused but curious: Instead of being focused on revenge against Bill whilst in the portal, Ford ended up making a home in a different universe. He has a royal fish husband and a fish child (probably a daughter but I might change that). Safe to say, he's even more pissed about Stan opening the portal in this au.

Dear Penni,

What are your thoughts on both of your parents? Are there any specific opinions you developed about them, or anything you feel stands out?

Hmm, I don't really know what to say about my thoughts about my fathers. It's an interesting question, but not one I'm quite sure about. It is quite vague... I suppose your follow-up questions add more clarification, though, so I'll just focus on them two!

My dad is the one I spend more time with because his work isn't confidential. That means that I can stay with him even while he's working on his smart science stuff. I do think, though, sometimes, that he's disappointed I don't find his work interesting. I wonder, only sometimes, if part of the reason he's so open to me spending time with him while he works is so that I end up interested in science too. I'm sure it's not, and he's never made me feel bad about not being fond of science, so it's probably just my imagination. After all, he always listens to me talk about what I do find interesting.

On the other hand, I think I'm more similar to pa. He's the one that got me interested in everything political after all, even if he can't tell me everything about it at the moment. He says I'm too young, and I've overhead him arguing with dad in the past about how loosely he parents. So, pa is definitely the stricter parent, but he's also more likely to explain himself when he tells me off, and he's the calmer one, with everything pretty much. I think pa is objectively the better parent then in that sense. He does seem to know more about parenting.

It's interesting to compare them both because they definitely both have things that I prefer for each of them. I do feel lonely a lot, even with both of them and everything they do. I don't know if that makes me ungrateful, because I can anything I want in the world.

Anything, that is, but a friend...

Well, I suppose that's as good a place as any to end it. I don't want to start sounding spoiled, even if I am a princess.

Princess Penni.