DAY 1

DAY 26

I have body dysmorphia so I don’t really trust the mirror but

My collarbøn3s are finally showing

I got a little gap between my th!ghs

My w3!ght 

When I bend over I can see my spine

And maybe other things but it’s hard for me to notice them

Okay so it’s been 3 weeks since I started and I think it’s time to add a “m3t@b day” to the routine First as a challenge, to prove myself that I’m in control and that I won’t f*€k everything up this time Second, because I don’t want to damage to much my m3t@bøl!sm and g@!n everything back just because of a wrong day And last but not least, as an experiment to see how it will affects my bød¥ (did I g@!n3d, løst or st@gn@t3d) But honestly I’m supposed to 3@t more than 2000 A DAY ?? and I really don’t know how I’ll try tho, it cannot be that hard

Especially if they give you the nonchalant treatment

Like you thought I would chase after you?? B!tc# I don’t have enough time for that lmao I have to be sk!n! Before summer wtf

Forget men I literally just want to look good in clothes

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE

+2 ice Americano of course + 2 l0wc@l lychee candy

Lunch: toasted bread with eggs and a salad with dragon fruit

Diner: 2pcs of tofu, 1 eggs, beansprout, 2 teaspoon of sambal, kimchi and rice + 2pcs of tempeh, cucumber, papaya + 1 bag of dry seaweed + 1 cup of green tea

Total≈ 1300

LETSGOOOOO 💃💃

I usually don’t count the c@l that I burn but today is a special day because if I don’t do it the culpability will be even worse

I had a HUGE breakfast this morning because we went on hiking during the night (2am to 7am) for 5 entire hours and I felt really weak after

I burned more than 700 c@l during this hike and I’m currently using this number to calm myself down when I think about breakfast (I ate a lot of veggies, fruits and protein but still in an enormous quantity)

I’m not sure but I’m thinking about sk!pping at least one m3@l.. maybe both we’ll see

Still stuck at 53… at least my strength remains the same as when I started I guess FREE ME FROM THIS JAIIIIIL😫

Post m3t@bday update I’m not feeling bloated? I’ll take it

My friend told me tonight that she could see my back and arms muscles!! I’m so happy like- That means that I’m not l00s!ng muscles mass (I might be in denial for this one haha) and it really helps me f!tt!ng my bødy dysmørph!@ right now Love her<3

Im gonna stop with the c@lør!3s.. I started tracking them again but it’s just stressing me so much and it’s not good for my goals so I will go back to estimation and focus on portions cøntrøl (this worked well with me)

I unintentionally made a 24h f@st today and idk how to feel

Im half proud half disappointed of myself Weird.